sweetie
take it from someone who wrote these exact words a year and a half ago.... in fact, go through the Words Archive when you get a chance, read some of my older stuff... you'll see what i went through, and how its NOT WORTH IT. i was engaged to a guy that i loved with all my heart, and for a year, if not longer, he cheated on me with so many girls... but i was naive, i refused to believe it... i always took his word over everyone else's. if he said it was just a rumor, i believed him (becuase i WANTED to believe he hadn't done all that).
i took him back and took him back and gave and gave and gave, and all i have of him now is a bunch of dusty memories, and more of them are painful than happy. i look back and wonder why i gave him so many chances. i beleived that people can change... but i proved myself wrong over and over.
you obviously love this person... and the hardest part of any situation like yours is when do you draw the line? but no one deserves to have the person you love go behind your back and say the things he says to you, to some other girl -- some girl he may or may not give a shit about.
Welcome to this forum -- it might be your healing; it always was for me. people here will listen to you, and not judge you; and hopefully you'll stick around long enough so that we can experience some of your HAPPY moments; they are just as soothing to write about.
Since you're new to BL, you might also want to check out the Sex, Love, and Relationships forum -- they give very good advice over there; and if you need a pick-me-up, or some motivation, check out the Life forum -- they are very supportive over there, and a lot of times, they can really help you out.
Hope all goes well for you.
here are a few of the links:
what should i do?
a letter i'll never send you
he was cheating on me as i wrote this...
you broke my heart tonight... i hope you read this someday
without you (inspirational)
there are so many more i wont even bother to post the links here... but you can do a search on them. its something i wrote about for over 2 years.
also check out this poem, by up all night (now known as Queen Beat):
cafe and coffee talk
[ 08 November 2002: Message edited by: E-girl ]
