cj
Bluelight Crew
I wanna write. Not about trap houses and long waits in parking lots. Not even about pushing the plunger and sending a rig full of D plunging into my vien. Nah i want to write about purpose. The reason i get out of bed in the morning these days.
Ali is my reason. I love the smell she leaves in the bed. Or when she borrows my shirts. Just those little moments when you realize damn this is real. Im on cloud fucking 9.
Her body is a wonderland i want to spend the rest of my life exploring. She gives me butterflies everytime i look in her eyes. We talk for hours with no awkward breaks or pauses. She is extremely intelligent and she knows it. But i trust her explicitly.
Im trying to realize that i do bring things to the table. I have a decent job. I pay for our place and all her expenses. But mostly im a good guy whos been through enough shit tO finally understand some fundamental truths about myself.
Im nice. Many mistake my kindness for weakness but those who dont gain a loyal confidant. Im far more self assured then i used to be but im not cocky. I just know where my values lie. Those values have been tested thoroughly. Ive had to make tough calls and live with it.
At 31 i know who i am and where i want to be. And now i know who i want to be with.
Ali is my reason. I love the smell she leaves in the bed. Or when she borrows my shirts. Just those little moments when you realize damn this is real. Im on cloud fucking 9.
Her body is a wonderland i want to spend the rest of my life exploring. She gives me butterflies everytime i look in her eyes. We talk for hours with no awkward breaks or pauses. She is extremely intelligent and she knows it. But i trust her explicitly.
Im trying to realize that i do bring things to the table. I have a decent job. I pay for our place and all her expenses. But mostly im a good guy whos been through enough shit tO finally understand some fundamental truths about myself.
Im nice. Many mistake my kindness for weakness but those who dont gain a loyal confidant. Im far more self assured then i used to be but im not cocky. I just know where my values lie. Those values have been tested thoroughly. Ive had to make tough calls and live with it.
At 31 i know who i am and where i want to be. And now i know who i want to be with.
