Admit it, how often do you go pilling?

[Transtar]

it seems the concensus is that most ppl aim to make it once a month, but for those people who drop more regularly, how many do you have per night? is it always a big night out, even if its, say, every two weeks?
i try to limit myself to a monthly thing, but recently ive been going every week so ive limited myself to one (and even half) each night...
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[Bossdog]

Personally, I have pills about once a month. To me though, the more worrying thing about my usage is the stuff I take in between.
This is especially the case when Im not even going out.
i.e. Im sitting on the couch and someone says 'Chris, do you want a line of K' and I go 'sure', even though a) Im not even going to have enough to really give me effects and b) Im probably going to go to bed in a few hours.
Realising that Im doing this more and more is really making me take a step back from it all. Does anyone else feel like this?

 

[pundi]

Rarely more than once in a fortnight, and i've developed a fairly regular pattern of having a break after every couple (be it a 4 or 6 week break).
Bossdog: I know what you mean (not the K, but various other drugs). I guess this is the area we should really be concerned about, because if it becomes a habit it could be the part that hurts most in the long run.

 

[plazma]

^^ i hear you guys and i totally agree with where you're coming from...
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sex: "its nature's cocaine, you can't just do it once..."
bluelight: "we are the viet cong of the war on drugs..."

 

[SupaspeeD]

Truth be told, most people during their "breaks" from MDMA just find other drugs to (ab)use. Whether thats a good thing (variety is the spice of life) or bad (ouch my brain) varies based on the individual.
I probably "pill" about once a month. When i do go out though, i do go a little crazy. I know about moderation and harm minimisation, but that won't stop me eating a lot of good pills, and having a ball. Hedonists never go home unhappy. I'm here to have a good time, and i don't stop for oranges at half time

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In between "pilling", there are plenty of things to amuse yourself with. As a break from all drugs, I am probably lucky to have a 2 week break most times. Usually i find every weekend there is something to enjoy - alcohol, weed, acid, mushies, speed, E, coke whatever. Note, that's enjoy - not "get fucked up on".
Is it a bad thing to be weekly using different drugs? Should you all tell me and others like me we are fools? Are you like me?
I don't get comedowns. After the drugs wear off, i just relax and chill out, talk codshit, laugh a lot. I don't get psychosis, i don't cry, i don't swear myself off drugs.
I work a 25hour week and am studying full time. I am more than passing my degree. I spend up to 100/week on drugs, 100 max, zero a minimum.
Is it a problem? I don't think so. People are different, and so are their personal situations. Some people can handle a whole heap of drugs weekly, and some people like pleo (props g ) don't need Ecstacy to have a good time. I don't think either party in that opposing scenario needs the drugs. One chooses not, the other chooses to.
Sorry about the ramble, i guess it didn't even have a direction. In laymans terms, i go pilling every about 4 weeks, some weeks i take 3-4 strong pills, some i take 1 and a half.

 

[wazza]

Since starting to pill regularly 10 months ago, I was pilling almost weekly (weekends). Sometimes either a fri or sat night or both nights. That is until I found BlueLight. Now I have been able to read about neurotoxicity and the possible effects of mdma use, I now have limited myself to one night every 3-4 weeks minimum. (only started 1 month ago.1 pill session since then, next is gonna be sometime in september/october I guess. Going to wait till I find something special for myself to pill at. Be it at a rave/party/home/whatver). I didn't stop my regular use because of mdma losing it's magic (believe me, it hasn't. In fact, I seem to be enjoying it more and more..) But I just don't want to get brainfried at a later stage of life without at least being able to have shown I did try to do harm minimilisation/reduction. Hell, it may come out that I am able to pill everyweekend and not be that much affected. I wasn't doing what a lot of people here seem to state: memory loss, making fools of themselves with silly mistakes etc. I do care about my brain/body and so far, in about 14 years since I first experienced drugs, I do not seem to be affected (badly).I have a job that needs high technical knowledge and speed when needed. So far, my boss is loving the improvements over the past sysadmin who has never touched drugs etc. I can hold my own up in conversations with my friends/work collegues regarding any topic. But to show the other foot, my girlfriend who pilled with me on 99% of those occasions (usually same or lower dosage) has been affected a lot more. She had (bad) comedowns/felt shit during the week in between sessions etc. So as yet again, it seems to show most people have different effects from drugs. And once again, as several people have stated 'Listen to what your body tells you', seems a good way to live your life..

 

[Mirage]

I started out like you plazma, having big break in between pills and only pilling on special occasions etc, but I've just gone through a bit of a binge stage (pilled the last 5 weeks in a row). I'm having a break now (mmhmm, heard that about 6 weeks ago too) though, I have to cus I need to keep my ead in good shape for my IT course and I really want a break. I still love pilling and going out and all that but, I dunno, I jsut want a break for a bit.
So umm yeh, my pilling regularity is quite irregular.
EDIT: I've only been pilling since last december
[This message has been edited by Mirage (edited 13 August 2001).]

 

[Milkybar]

For me it's once every three weeks. It's never planned, just seems to work out that way. After day 20 of being e-free I start getting the urge again.

When I first started 3.5 years ago I would only have done it every 6 weeks but since being on BL (bout 18 months) my use has doubled - probably because I think I'm *protecting* myself with 5-htp.
Despite knowing all the precautionary measures I'll still take 2-2.5 pills and mix them with whatever other chemical presents itself (drinks, speed, coke, one4b, k, valium, even acid). Two days turn into one. And no food for about 40 hrs.
Still, my recovery time isn't bad - 2 days 'til I get back to 100% both mentally and physically, and being in a creative industry means I don't have to think very logically at any time - actually, the drugs probably help.

Of course, there's the nagging possibility that senility/general madness may come before grandchildren do, but that's just the stoopid risk we pleasure-seeking ppls take, isn't it?
Hopefully science will come up with an answer or else we'll have to start putting away some $$ for the Bluelight Retirement Centre for the Chemically Damaged. Has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

 

[plazma]

Ok... thanks heaps and heaps to you peeps who have replied, and hopefully those who will reply to this thread... i've found it to be a learning experience...
-peak hard-
And be safe *
* (that's a disclaimer... i mean this is a harm reduction site right?)
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[Prometheus]

My usage probably averages out to once every 3-4 weeks but now with no big parties in the near future i'll probably have a break from the pills for 6-8weeks

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[Smurf]

I dont pill anymore...
I just snort *FAT* lines of coke.
gives the *sniff* of disdain to bluelight, and walks off

 

[fat tony]

i havent had many weeks off since EC new years.. hehe. see what ya'll have done to me............. you know who u are.

uni holidays went fucking nuts. you could go out thursday night and come home tuesday afternoon.
its those binges that are scary.. where u start to feel a bit straight and you fight it with anything available - G, booze, or more pills.
at least i can say i aint no quitter, the nights just dont end. still, i come out of it all alright.. as long as you have good friends you're pretty right i reckon.
tony

 

[the_man]

Well id say once every 4weeks at major events. But theres always those times when there is a spare pill lying around and when u get offerd a free one of friends

When i first started went 3 weeks in a row but thats before i knew anything about damage to the brain xtra xtra..
Im relatively new to the whole pilling scence, but now ive decided that im going to try leave it 2 months between pilling.

 

[shank]

Fuck i wish i didnt have to work then i could go on a binge from thurs to tue as well. Yes we are all aware of the consequences but that doesnt exactly stop everyone sometimes the pros are better than the cons. I had a period of about little over 6 months when i was in the city at least 2 nights a week but it got 2 much. Took a few weeks off then cut back to one night a week for about 3 weeks in a row then a week off sorta cycle. Now i dunno what i want. I still just wanna binge but dont think i can handle the anxious weeks between the weekends anymore. Plus with many weeks in a row and large amount of drugs consumed ya really do get paranoid. I reckon i should do the once a month thing yous all say to do but make it a thurs-mon weekend - once a month. Thatd probably be the best cause ya get the best of both worlds, ya get to live normally for a few weeks, ya get ya massive weekend of fun and ya get ya scattered recovery week after ya massive weekend.
I reckon its good what a lot of you are doin keeping a lot of drug use sensible. I am trying to sorta do that now, but i still wanna go stupid with it. Ya just gotta find a happy medium that ya like best. I have honestly thought about if i could give up pilz and i would say i see myself cutting back but i reckon even when i am much older pilz will still play a small part in my life. A much smaller part i hope.
As pleo said ya can take pilz and learn from em and not need em again. But others just wanna go out and have a damn good time do what they enjoy most. And ya can get into a trap but its sure is a fun trap and i reckon life is more enjoyable as a result of it. And ya learn from it. Someone started a thread called "how good do we have it" or something like that. Well i reckon the cons of having such an enjoyable and interesting life, and actually livin it, outways the cons that we all know of. plus i dont think ya can overdoit for to long a period it eventually catches up with ya. Even once a week gets to ya after a while.
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[De Quincey]

about once a month. since i started about 10 months ago i haven't had pills less than 2 weeks apart, and my longest break has been about 8 weeks. i feel like this is in control. i don't feel any different or more scat. i don't get bad comedowns, and i get more depressed from lack of exercise than post-pills. still trying to keep it to once a month on average, although if there's 2 really big occasions closer than that, i might indulge

recently been having wizz a little bit as well. maybe every 2-3 weeks if i feel like dancing for 6 hours

i really hate the green stuff, it just makes me cough and then sit down and shut up.
i feel like my drugs are under control, cos i have a fairly busy life to cope with

 

[RaVeR bUnNy]

I tend to agree with pleo...Like i go to see a good Dj get excited bout it then munch bikki's and then don't really notice that much were i am.
I used to have pills every 2nd weekend or every weekend which was a bit to much but i was having to much of a good time

now this is my 5th week of a brake and feelin good and getting para

 

[Pekichoo]

Just to the BIg Big...events...
no more baby sublime nites........

 

[ricksta]

I'm just a poor student. I (fortunately) can't afford that many pills, though I doubt that I'd constantly spend my weekly earnings on an assortment of drugs. After all, students are supposed to be smart aren't they?
Big events are enough for me. Good thing is they only happen every 4-6 weeks over here. Gives me something to look forward to rather than every weekend's drug taking.

 

[flutter]

I've been taking pills on a regular basis for over 5 years. Although over the last 2 years i've prob taken more than i should have. Sometimes i get a little crazy and want to party every weekend, then i'll have a break for a while. Haven't had one in almost a month. Not sure when i'll do it again. I'm relly enjoying being clean. My mind and body are starting to thank me!
I guess the good thing is that when i do have a pill i have a great night on 1/2-1 pill. So i guess my tolerance is still ok but i put that down to regular breaks. I hate it when i meet ppl who have been pilling for 6-12 months and they tell me they need at least 2 pills a night to feel anything!!!!! That is scary!
Then again pills aren't my problem. I LOVE my speed. Yes i went through a very bad period (1.5 years actually) where i used way too much. But i've got that under control and it's been 5 weeks since i had any.
I also used to be a candyflipping freak. I love my acid but i've been very good and haven't had any for over 1.5 years. The last trip i took was fucking unreal and since then i haven't even wanted to have another one!
So i guess i used to pill etc way to much but i've got it all under control now. Nothing like a bit of life experience to teach you your limits

 

[z-man]

I've visited this site for some time yet this is my first posting - yes i'm a virgin

I take 'E' 4 perhaps 5 times a year. Some may think this is piss weak but my life is more than pilling. I did not experience the 'honeymoon period' were I went pilling every weekend. Aside from the fact that I could not afford it (poor student like ricksta!) I just could not bring myself to spend upwards of $250 a weekend. Not to mention the adverse side effects.
I'm quite happy limiting my consumption of E to big events.
cheers
z-man