Addiction

This life that I lead
and the lessons I've learned
I think about this
As I shoot and get numb
Never Again
This way will i turn
No Longer
Can I fight the yearn
What am I doing
This is not me
I know so much better
I long to be free
Tomorrow I'll quit
I will just be strong
I know I can do it
It wont take that long
I wake to first thoughts
The craving wont go
I caved in a little
I fucked up..I know
A little a little
To then alot and alot
Why am i doing this
Why can't I stop
Give me a new drug
Or a different pill
Then I can stop it
I know that I will
Life is so short
But my days are so long
Why am i still doing this
When I know that it's wrong
I'll cut off my fingers
And all of my toes
Then I can't touch it
Or walk where it goes
Maybe then
My mind will think
And my eyes will see
Death seems the only way
To set my soul free