I just want to say to anyone out there fighting with addiction, you are not alone. Every body has an addiction. Every one has demons. We all have to hit rock bottom. Thats how we learn. Ive been on both sides of it. I went too far a few times. Do I wish I never took that first pill that my husband gave me? No I dont. I went thru hell but I did it to myself. I have comento terms with the monster inside me. I never understood why someone would need to be under the influence of anything. I never drank alcohol not even a sip, never touched a cigarette to my lips and never needed to get high to get through the day. Itll never happen to me. Thats what I thought. But it did and it can spiral out of control before you even realize you have a problem. Dont give up. This is a battle I fought to long and should have stopped when it started. You are a solider. You are fighting in war. You cant give up or back down because it gets to hard. Its time to buck up. You will not die fighting this devil called addiction. You will win. You can do it. Ther are millions of people who have been thru much worse and guess what, they made it. It may take longer than you hoped but one day you will be able to wake up and live your life free, finally. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyways. I still have courage. I hope you do too.