Addiction has ruined me and there's no going back

[punk101]

I sit here tonight, stoned again. My left nostril vibrates and produces a loud whistling sound as I inhale whilst my right nostril is in constant pain. This is all due to substance abuse. It is one year since I broke a four year long ketamine addiction, but I'll never be free of the burden. It often hurts to move due to the pain in my abdomen induced by ketamine abuse. I have taken endless OTC products in the vague hope that I may be able to save myself. I'm getting along in life but I can't believe that I have ruined myself at such a young age and can't bear to think of my life ahead in this permanent state of disdain. Life is but a blur and everything is passing right before me.

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

Nothing is permanent..u need to stay positive..if u think u will get better than u will recover faster..try and find something to take your mind off the problems so u dont obsess about it...are u sure your stomach issues are from the ketamine?

 

[herbavore]

Hey punk, I'm so sorry that you are feeling such despair tonight. Sometimes it takes a huge amount of faith and a huge amount of effort to simply re-frame a thought from fatalistic to hopeful but that is the only ticket out of where you are. I am in my 60's. I have friends that were close to death back in their twenties and thirties due to drug abuse and addiction. They are vibrant and healthy today. Despair will only compound your problems. Keep staying on a road to health. Treat your body well and believe in its power to heal. Our bodies and especially our brains are incredible! Hang in there. If you ever want to PM me for some extra support, don't hesitate.

 

[Dresden]

There may be no going back, but there is still going forward. Still, I'm very sorry that ketamine has caused you such physical harm. Have you gone to the doctor?