addicted to weed, xanax, ghb and bluelight

Gon Farufa

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Hi all,

Im 44 years old. I used weed from 17 years old. Last year I decided to quit. Used about a gram a day and now am at a gram a week. At the same time I discovered partying and xtc. Abused xtc for some months and quit that too.

From that point I got 'addicted' to bluelight. I have my own company and in stead of going to work I read bluelight for 1-3 hours a day. All those people having a worse time than me...

This is no longer true. I ordered some etizolam from the internet around march this year and ate them like candy. I totally lost control then and start using GHB and speed too. This resulted in psychosis and I spend 1 day in a hospital.

I flushed the rest of my etizolam and was subscribed remeron. This worked very good. I almost stopped using other drugs at all: weed once a week with friends and some GHB after gym.

Remeron use resulted in arthritis after some months (not totally sure this was the cause). Stopped using it. Sleeping was awkward from that point. I ordered some more benzo's from the internet (this time xanax from india) and my GHB use increased.

2 days ago I decided I needed to quit the Xanax (using it for a little less the 2 months at 1mg a day) and I couldn't. I used .5mg on Wednesday, .5mg on Thursday, 1.5mg on Friday and .5mg Saturday. Sunday, I was very anxious all day. The only thing which helped was GHB. Used it 24/7 for a few days in the past, so I know how bad it can be. However, I dont want to use Xanax again. So since Sunday morning I used 3ml every 3 hours.

This cannot be maintained so I contacted my psychologist last night and could see her immediately. This talk helped me somewhat. I have an appointment with my doctor in an hour. Hope he can help me somehow.

Not sure why I am writing this. Maybe someone has some useful info.
 
Maybe your doctor can help you with a taper plan to get off the benzos. It can be dangerous to just abruptly stop using them. I doubt that the remeron has anything to do with you getting arthritis but again this is an issue to speak to your doctor about. As far as your Bluelight addiction, can you just find a way to browse the forums when you get home from work? Wish you luck!
 
Thx for your reply. Feel almost honored: you are one of my favorite members (besides nsa & capt.heroin). Always friendly & looking for solutions. I think you are a great human beings...

Doctor said: stop ghb and take benzo's for 2 more weeks. Take .5mg a day for a week and half of that, next week, than quit. This is what I will do.

She also said I should contact aa/na. I will do that.

I will also do what you said. Tomorrow, I'll just go to work and 'save' bluelight for the evening.
 
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