I am a 21 year old female born and raised in Toronto Ontario. I have been struggling with injectable drugs since I was 16 years old. It started with ketamine which seems to be the prominent drug of choice, but has switched between heroin, coke and meth over time. I had used ketamine primarily for about 2-3 years until I started seeing someone who absolutely hated the fact I was doing it (mind you he was hooked on heroin) When I was k holing it would freak him out and got to the point where he threatened to end our relationship if I didnt stop. I eventually switced from k to heroin and develpoed and physical and almost emotional addiciton to the drug. I was on methadone for about two years and finally weined myself off and managed to stay sober for about a year. Of course I fell back to ketamine because its not physically addictive like heroin altough it is extremely psychologically addictive ( for me at least) and that began to fuck with my life again. I finally took a stand and moved to calgary alberta where I could FINALLY be in a place where I knew no one and had no hookups. Me being such a social (and awesome... just kidding) girl, I met a group of friends almost instantly and was invited to a party the same night I arrived in Calgary. being 1 month sober at this point I felt confident that I could manage to stay sober at this party or at least have a few beers and call it quits. When I arrived everyone seemed normal until I entered a room where about 1/3 or the party was shooting coke. I had a very brief past with cocaine and instantly caved which began the next 2 months of an intense cocaine habit that I eventually kicked. I am now back in Toronto steadily using k again and NEED TO STOP. THIS SHIT IS RUINING MY LIFE. I have been trying to seek residential treatment programs or support groups with no avail. I am so frustrated and ashamed of these actions I dont know what to do. Friends and family members are losing patience and hope in me as well, almost as if I am a lost cause. Anyone know of any immediate treatment programs or support groups in toronto that can help asap??
Peace and love .
Peace and love .
