Hi,
Allow me to introduce myself first:
I am Mypsilon, a 28yr old male and I have been a sex addict since my early childhood.. i’ve always had to the ‘urge’ to have a lot of sex & do a lot of masturbation.. and i’ve always done it & enjoyed it sober, sometimes even up to 5 times a day.. it has never really been a big problem since I had everything under control and had enough options to explore my sex life so I was never left really frustrated.
I started smoking weed when I was 14 but it didn’t really do much for me besides making me vomit most of the times so I quit that soon enough. I didn’t start to experiment with drugs before the age of 23 because i used to be ‘against it’ , because i’ve been working ever since i’m 16 years old in the nightlife (disco’s & bars) and i only saw the ‘bad side’ of drugs.. I tried a few sort of drugs like weed, MDMA, Cocaine, Speed & Ketamine and although I liked my experiences while under the influence of this drug, none of them were making me an addict.. it was just ‘a nice little extra’ but alcohol was more then enough for me.. sometimes I didn’t even do any drugs for more then 3 months and didn’t miss it at all.. until this friend of mine told me the magic words , 4 years ago , at the age of 24 : ‘this is what they call: sex drugs’ . This friend of mine introduced me to mephedrone, also known as Meow Meow or MCAT. It’s a designer drugs and the effects are best compared to a mixture of MDMA & Cocaine in 1.. for me, it has the ‘love emotions’ and talkativeness & closeness feeling of MDMA but without feeling so ‘high’ due to the concentration feeling that you get from Cocaine.. this friend of mine also said that it’s the best (besides crystal meth and LSD) to have sex on, but that it’s more safe then crystal meth because it is not physically addictive.. so after doing some research on it, I tried it with my girlfriend… and I was immediately hooked…
The connection that I make with my girlfriend while we are both using mephedrone is magical. We can listen to each other for hours, have deep conversations & get insanely horny in the process. It’s not long before we start discussing the craziest and most intimate sexual fantasies that anyone can imagine.. we discovered a whole new world : BDSM. And that was the key… it’s our way of showing our love for eachother and I can honestly say that I have never ever felt so intimate with someone before..
We prepare these sessions really well… 2-3 days ‘off work’ , a good meal to start with , decorating our living room into a true fuck palace with loads of sex toys & fetish attributes, we write sexual scenario’s and fantasies and play games that most of the times we invent ourselves.. and it really is something that we look forward to any time we can afford to do it… this could go on for sometimes up to 72 hours…
Luckily, we both use our common sense a little bit and realise that it is not something that you can do every day.. we usually do it once every 10 days.. it used to go up to 72 hours, but nowadays we try to limit it to 24 hours so that it doesn’t ‘overkill’ our bodies all to much..
Now, 2 years later… We thought we controlled everything but only now we are starting to see the downside of it. We used to have sex or any form of intimacy nearly every day since I am a sex addict, with or without mephedrone, usually just with weed, but lately we actually don’t touch each other anymore unless we are using mephedrone. We try to not talk about it, or make up excuses for it, but nowadays it’s getting very ‘clearly’ and I think we are both suffering because of it.. it’s hard to explain, how we both love each other so much but it feels or looks like we are both ‘ashamed’ of things we do or know about each other and due to the lack of endorphines/dopamine in the comedown of the drug(s) it makes it even worse ?
It makes me so sad that we are so ‘distanced’ from each other for a whole week, to then snort 2-3 lines of mephedrone and ‘rediscover’ each other and every time we do it, after the 2nd or 3rd line, we become this insanely ‘in love’ couple who do EVERYTHING to please each other and have the most romantic & deep conversations also while taking breaks from the sex & bdsm.. we find solutions for our problems and state ‘rules’ to improve our daily life, but every time after we sober up & sleep for a whole day we become this very ‘distanced’ couple again..
Has anyone have any opinion on this or has experienced the same thing? What is the best thing we can do, besides the obvious: quitting mephedrone… which brings me to my topic: is an addiction to chemsex, with for example: mephedrone controllable or not?`
Thanks for taking the time to read,
Mypsilon
Allow me to introduce myself first:
I am Mypsilon, a 28yr old male and I have been a sex addict since my early childhood.. i’ve always had to the ‘urge’ to have a lot of sex & do a lot of masturbation.. and i’ve always done it & enjoyed it sober, sometimes even up to 5 times a day.. it has never really been a big problem since I had everything under control and had enough options to explore my sex life so I was never left really frustrated.
I started smoking weed when I was 14 but it didn’t really do much for me besides making me vomit most of the times so I quit that soon enough. I didn’t start to experiment with drugs before the age of 23 because i used to be ‘against it’ , because i’ve been working ever since i’m 16 years old in the nightlife (disco’s & bars) and i only saw the ‘bad side’ of drugs.. I tried a few sort of drugs like weed, MDMA, Cocaine, Speed & Ketamine and although I liked my experiences while under the influence of this drug, none of them were making me an addict.. it was just ‘a nice little extra’ but alcohol was more then enough for me.. sometimes I didn’t even do any drugs for more then 3 months and didn’t miss it at all.. until this friend of mine told me the magic words , 4 years ago , at the age of 24 : ‘this is what they call: sex drugs’ . This friend of mine introduced me to mephedrone, also known as Meow Meow or MCAT. It’s a designer drugs and the effects are best compared to a mixture of MDMA & Cocaine in 1.. for me, it has the ‘love emotions’ and talkativeness & closeness feeling of MDMA but without feeling so ‘high’ due to the concentration feeling that you get from Cocaine.. this friend of mine also said that it’s the best (besides crystal meth and LSD) to have sex on, but that it’s more safe then crystal meth because it is not physically addictive.. so after doing some research on it, I tried it with my girlfriend… and I was immediately hooked…
The connection that I make with my girlfriend while we are both using mephedrone is magical. We can listen to each other for hours, have deep conversations & get insanely horny in the process. It’s not long before we start discussing the craziest and most intimate sexual fantasies that anyone can imagine.. we discovered a whole new world : BDSM. And that was the key… it’s our way of showing our love for eachother and I can honestly say that I have never ever felt so intimate with someone before..
We prepare these sessions really well… 2-3 days ‘off work’ , a good meal to start with , decorating our living room into a true fuck palace with loads of sex toys & fetish attributes, we write sexual scenario’s and fantasies and play games that most of the times we invent ourselves.. and it really is something that we look forward to any time we can afford to do it… this could go on for sometimes up to 72 hours…
Luckily, we both use our common sense a little bit and realise that it is not something that you can do every day.. we usually do it once every 10 days.. it used to go up to 72 hours, but nowadays we try to limit it to 24 hours so that it doesn’t ‘overkill’ our bodies all to much..
Now, 2 years later… We thought we controlled everything but only now we are starting to see the downside of it. We used to have sex or any form of intimacy nearly every day since I am a sex addict, with or without mephedrone, usually just with weed, but lately we actually don’t touch each other anymore unless we are using mephedrone. We try to not talk about it, or make up excuses for it, but nowadays it’s getting very ‘clearly’ and I think we are both suffering because of it.. it’s hard to explain, how we both love each other so much but it feels or looks like we are both ‘ashamed’ of things we do or know about each other and due to the lack of endorphines/dopamine in the comedown of the drug(s) it makes it even worse ?
It makes me so sad that we are so ‘distanced’ from each other for a whole week, to then snort 2-3 lines of mephedrone and ‘rediscover’ each other and every time we do it, after the 2nd or 3rd line, we become this insanely ‘in love’ couple who do EVERYTHING to please each other and have the most romantic & deep conversations also while taking breaks from the sex & bdsm.. we find solutions for our problems and state ‘rules’ to improve our daily life, but every time after we sober up & sleep for a whole day we become this very ‘distanced’ couple again..
Has anyone have any opinion on this or has experienced the same thing? What is the best thing we can do, besides the obvious: quitting mephedrone… which brings me to my topic: is an addiction to chemsex, with for example: mephedrone controllable or not?`
Thanks for taking the time to read,
Mypsilon
