haleyhaleyhaley
Bluelighter
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- Dec 5, 2015
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dose: 120mg adderall xr
weight/height: 180lbs/5'7
i have adhd and a slight tolerance to adderall (i've taken it for maybe a week broken up for the adhd), so that might be why this experience has left me disillusioned and disappointed. maybe it's because it was extended release. idk.
either way, it was a shitty experience with absolutely no high and i'm still suffering from the comedown. here it is.
7:10am - 40mg orally.
7:27am - no effect (i didn't realize it was xr at the time),so i took 20mg more orally.
7:37am - i crushed up another 20mg and licked it off the table, and washed it down with some water.
7:58am - no noticeable effects, though i was slightly irritable (due to not being a morning person? just got yelled at by somebody? the adderall? all three?)
8:21am - tired but focused. no euphoria or body high as of yet. not even a buzz.
8:26am - irrationally angry, tired, verge of tears, frustrated.
9:54am - can't tell if tired or chill. feeling productive.
10:26am - fingers feel stiff, cracking them every thirty seconds. work not coming fast enough.
10:49am - 20mg orally.
10:52am - feel a little jittery, two hours of menial work ahead, itching to do math or take notes. legs/body feels a little tingly.
12:09pm - feeling tired, bored, unsatisfied, irritable, dreading human interaction.
12:23pm - physically hungry, mentally full.
12:50pm - 20mg orally. starting to get chills, still no high.
1:06pm - chills, backache, physically tired, mentally awake/hype.
2:14pm - creatively on fire, wrote 5 pages of poetry, hand cramps minor disturbance, can't write fast enough, physical exhaustion overpowered by mental fire in my head.
2:57pm - ravenously physically starving, mentally kind of hungry/nauseous, tired, school over but lots of homework, not sure if i'll do homework asap or productively procrastinate and nap.
10:59pm - just did 8 hours worth of homework, time just flew by.
11:00pm - 10mg melatonin.
11:12pm - physically tired, mentally wide awake, jittery.
11:36pm - attempt to go to bed, still jittery.
11:47pm - can't sleep.
12:25am - hungry, can't sleep, too awake to sleep, too tired to do anything.
1:46am - increased heartrate, still can't sleep.
1:50am - 5mg melatonin, granola bar.
1:58am - stomachache, even hungrier.
3:07am - recurring tics/turrets, cracking fingers again, can't sleep.
3:08am - in an attempt to curb my anxiety, lessen the blow of the comedoen, and maybe get some sleep, took 0.1mg clonidine.
3:51am - still can't sleep, have to be up at 6am. might take 30-120mg of vyvanse around 7. heard it feels less dirty than addys. not sure if depression or crippling existential anxiety is a side effect of the comedown or if it's just me.
4:07am - given up all hope of sleep. not sure if i should take more clonidine, some vyvanse, or just a 5 hr energy. hope to god i don't crash during finals. fuck xr.
4:12am - sudden wave of exhaustion. i'm ready to fucking switch to riddalin.
weight/height: 180lbs/5'7
i have adhd and a slight tolerance to adderall (i've taken it for maybe a week broken up for the adhd), so that might be why this experience has left me disillusioned and disappointed. maybe it's because it was extended release. idk.
either way, it was a shitty experience with absolutely no high and i'm still suffering from the comedown. here it is.
7:10am - 40mg orally.
7:27am - no effect (i didn't realize it was xr at the time),so i took 20mg more orally.
7:37am - i crushed up another 20mg and licked it off the table, and washed it down with some water.
7:58am - no noticeable effects, though i was slightly irritable (due to not being a morning person? just got yelled at by somebody? the adderall? all three?)
8:21am - tired but focused. no euphoria or body high as of yet. not even a buzz.
8:26am - irrationally angry, tired, verge of tears, frustrated.
9:54am - can't tell if tired or chill. feeling productive.
10:26am - fingers feel stiff, cracking them every thirty seconds. work not coming fast enough.
10:49am - 20mg orally.
10:52am - feel a little jittery, two hours of menial work ahead, itching to do math or take notes. legs/body feels a little tingly.
12:09pm - feeling tired, bored, unsatisfied, irritable, dreading human interaction.
12:23pm - physically hungry, mentally full.
12:50pm - 20mg orally. starting to get chills, still no high.
1:06pm - chills, backache, physically tired, mentally awake/hype.
2:14pm - creatively on fire, wrote 5 pages of poetry, hand cramps minor disturbance, can't write fast enough, physical exhaustion overpowered by mental fire in my head.
2:57pm - ravenously physically starving, mentally kind of hungry/nauseous, tired, school over but lots of homework, not sure if i'll do homework asap or productively procrastinate and nap.
10:59pm - just did 8 hours worth of homework, time just flew by.
11:00pm - 10mg melatonin.
11:12pm - physically tired, mentally wide awake, jittery.
11:36pm - attempt to go to bed, still jittery.
11:47pm - can't sleep.
12:25am - hungry, can't sleep, too awake to sleep, too tired to do anything.
1:46am - increased heartrate, still can't sleep.
1:50am - 5mg melatonin, granola bar.
1:58am - stomachache, even hungrier.
3:07am - recurring tics/turrets, cracking fingers again, can't sleep.
3:08am - in an attempt to curb my anxiety, lessen the blow of the comedoen, and maybe get some sleep, took 0.1mg clonidine.
3:51am - still can't sleep, have to be up at 6am. might take 30-120mg of vyvanse around 7. heard it feels less dirty than addys. not sure if depression or crippling existential anxiety is a side effect of the comedown or if it's just me.
4:07am - given up all hope of sleep. not sure if i should take more clonidine, some vyvanse, or just a 5 hr energy. hope to god i don't crash during finals. fuck xr.
4:12am - sudden wave of exhaustion. i'm ready to fucking switch to riddalin.
