I wasn't quite sure where to post this. It's specifically about adderall but since it involves some personal issues I figured TDS would be the best place. I thought about posting this in the amphetamine quitting thread, but felt my situation is a little different considering I'm not abusing my adderall.
I have an ADHD diagnosis and have been prescribed and taking 30mg xr daily for almost a year now. I did fantastic my first year of college with its help and the adderall seemed to improve my life overall as well. I really didn't abuse the prescription, and only doubled up on it 3 times in total. So it's not like I have been taking heroic 100mg+ doses like some users I know. Regardless, the adderall began to lose its spark towards the end of the year as my tolerance had become fairly high. I no longer got the energy/mood/focus boost I once had from it. I felt as if I had to take it just to get back up to a normal functioning level, and without out it I was worse off than before I ever took it. I have resisted asking my doctor to increase my prescription, as I don't want to turn into another adderall burnout.
The tolerance continued into this summer, and I have begun to skip as many days as possible to try and lower it. Ideally only using it once a week. However the exhaustion and lack of motivation are brutal, and the withdrawal isn't showing any signs of stopping after two month of only using it once a week. I keep getting 12+ hours of sleep a night and am unable to wake up anytime before noon. So my big decision is whether or not I should keep spacing it out and eventually quit for good, or if I should keep using it.
My parent's opinion is to keep using it while my doctor is staying pretty neutral. I know how much tougher things are going to be once I quit after an even longer daily use. And like I said, now 30mg just brings me up to baseline in terms of focus/performance/mood and without it I'm even worse than before.
I'm sure there are other bluelighters out there with similar stories. I'd love to hear from someone that has also gone through a love/hate relationship with adderall and how it played out after quitting. Oh, and some advice would be much appreciated
Thanks
I have an ADHD diagnosis and have been prescribed and taking 30mg xr daily for almost a year now. I did fantastic my first year of college with its help and the adderall seemed to improve my life overall as well. I really didn't abuse the prescription, and only doubled up on it 3 times in total. So it's not like I have been taking heroic 100mg+ doses like some users I know. Regardless, the adderall began to lose its spark towards the end of the year as my tolerance had become fairly high. I no longer got the energy/mood/focus boost I once had from it. I felt as if I had to take it just to get back up to a normal functioning level, and without out it I was worse off than before I ever took it. I have resisted asking my doctor to increase my prescription, as I don't want to turn into another adderall burnout.
The tolerance continued into this summer, and I have begun to skip as many days as possible to try and lower it. Ideally only using it once a week. However the exhaustion and lack of motivation are brutal, and the withdrawal isn't showing any signs of stopping after two month of only using it once a week. I keep getting 12+ hours of sleep a night and am unable to wake up anytime before noon. So my big decision is whether or not I should keep spacing it out and eventually quit for good, or if I should keep using it.
My parent's opinion is to keep using it while my doctor is staying pretty neutral. I know how much tougher things are going to be once I quit after an even longer daily use. And like I said, now 30mg just brings me up to baseline in terms of focus/performance/mood and without it I'm even worse than before.
I'm sure there are other bluelighters out there with similar stories. I'd love to hear from someone that has also gone through a love/hate relationship with adderall and how it played out after quitting. Oh, and some advice would be much appreciated
Thanks
