Adderall - Experienced (?) - and.....heaven

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Adderal and.....heaven

Drug: Adderall
Backround: I swallowed two 20 mg Adderall pills within 3 hours. I did it out of expiritmentation and bordem. The only other drug I've tired is weed.

At 6 PM, I took one 20 mg adderall pill. I went to my friend’s house. There, I hung out with my two friends Adam and Phil. I had told them I took some adderall and they simply laughed because it was just a couple days ago I was making fun of kids who do adderall. Oh how times change. Now, during this car ride to the movie rental store ( around 6:30/7ish) I had the most fun time. I was just..happy. I can’t really explain. Nothing was wrong. I’m not particularly stressed in my life but that car ride made me laugh and talk and smile and just relax and be myself. I don’t know if it was the drug or it was just my head but it was a wonderful feeling…the first of many to come.

At 7:15, I arrive at my friend mike’s house. I had told him I had token some adderall, and he started telling me stuff like “man you should only do natural drugs” “you shouldn’t do pills that stuff is dangerous” which for some reason I found that to be amusing since it was just a week ago I had said I would never ever do adderall. How times change. Anyway, at this point I’m not feeling anything amazing but I’m feeling extremely social. I was being a smooth/funny talker and feeling a little bit relaxed. Nothing that would make me wanna do this drug again though.

So we walk around town, I talk like a about a million words a minute. During the middle of this walk, the effects, start really going. I’ve never read anything of anyone getting spiritual feelings with adderall, but as the effects started to rise, I began to feel the euphoric nature of adderall, and all I could think was “I hope this is what heaven is like” and I thought about god and every religion I could think of. I started thinking about how ignorant I am of other cultures, or even worse, how ignorant I am of the world around me. I’m not religious, I’m not extremely dumb, and I read the news daily. But I don’t know…it just seemed too easy. It seems like reading about stuff on a piece of paper or watching what some guy says on some tv screen isn’t enough. I wanted to experience the stories If they talk about war, I want to see the violent videos and photos; I want to me shown the worst. Likewise, I’d like the to be shown the best of things too. I wanna know when we catch a bad guy and when we help someone. I wanna know both sides. And it’s not just war, it’s anything. Government, politics, sports, entertainment, people, environmental issues, anything. I wanted everyone’s opinion. I wanted the extremist view, moderate view, idealistic view, pessimistic view, realistic view, republican view, democrat view, green view, libertarian view, the working class view, the rich view, artistic view, ect. And then I realized I was just labeling groups of people and it seems like people are so obsessed with categorizing people that they only look at the labels and not the individuals themselves. Well, I still need to organize those thoughts so on with the story.

Around 8:30 we wind up back at my house. Chill out for about a half an hour. We listen to music and talk. Lately, I’m have this feeling that I’m a boring person. I don’t know why, I just havent’ had a lot to say. I’m not really funny, I’m not cunning, I’m not charming, I have have trouble keeping a conversation going. While on adderall, however, I was (if I do say so myself) perfect. I knew all the right things to say. I was funny, witty, fun, spontaneous, and unpredictable. It was very fun to make those kids laugh over and over. And normally I sometimes studder while I talk, but for some reason I completely stopped on adderall. I could talk almost perfectly and keep the conversation flowing like water through a fire hose.

At 9,I ate my last 20 mg pill and left. We met up with a bunch of my other friends. Between 9:30 and 10:30, I had felt God’s hand touch me, God’s voice speak to me, and God’s eyes looked into mine. I was touching myself, I was talking to myself, I was looking in a mirror. I was God. The pills must of really taken into effect, because I felt infinite and God-like and completely omnipotent. I was perfectly calm and happy. I was more then happy; I was completely satisfied with my life. I don’t think I could of found one thing wrong with my life at that time. I was an ancient immortal hero like that of Greek Mythology. I knew everything and was everything. I started thanking and apologizing to everyone I saw. I had felt bad for any mean thins I had done to them in the past and wanted to thank them for being my friend. I felt united and loved. I felt an absolute peace. I wanted the be the one who frees the slaves. I wanted to be the one who helped women get equal rights. I wanted to stop all corruption and every instance of civil rights be shat on. Physically, my whole bodied tickled. Mentally, I was completely serene. I’ve never felt anything like that in my life. It was completely…tranquil.

I think adderall is perhaps one of the most amazing creations ever. It’s powerful qualities can make it some-what dangerous but I definitely think it’s worth it. I’ve got no doubt in my mind I will re-use this drug again. Now…. what are your experiences think of the drug adderall and it’s heavenly qualities? and since I'm such a noob I just have to ask....what's a good (I.E safe) amount for me to use? I want to intensify the effects as much as possible, but I also don't want do anything dumb.

 

[DJAngrE]

First, a word of advice...
If you want to keep the experience THAT special, I would suggest waiting a long time to do it again. If you only wait a week in between, it's QUICKLY going to get old, AND you'll just try taking more to get the same effect. That's when you'll realize (and hate to break it to you) but adderall is a drug man, it's just a tool. This time it was a tool for you to see beauty and god, overuse it, and it'll just be a tool to get high, your perspective on past experiences might change too. like, meh, in the beginning it was okay, but now the magic is just not there.

yeah, it sounds like i'm talking about mdma or something, but shit, I think this applies to most drugs. Take it easy, just let the experience roll it's course, wait until you aren't thinking about it often. Then revisit it sometime later (i'm thinking like MONTHS later) it will be like coming home again. My advice is don't buy the season pass.

For me, 20mg of ady just chills me out and I just want to sit down and can't really think of anything. I'm not sure why it's so different for me, but it may have something to do with the fact that i'm ADD.

Safely, you could probably have taken both 20's at once and been okay. but why change an experience that was just so right for you? you know?

oh, and when you DO get a hold of some ecstasy, please try to remember my advice, it will be HARD

live,
-LiFe

 

[Mean Girl]

Are you experienced in taking this or not? I get the feeling you've taken it in it's intended dosages so far...

 

[captainballs]

Adderall is great until a)the worse than ecstasy comedowns start to rear their ugly head (experienced at this point), b) Huge amounts don't really get your blood pumping, and c) you're taking it just because you can't think to do homework without it... keep it real and watch out for those sneaky aderalls!!! 8(

 

[dbighead2]

yeah man be careful. Stimulants have a nature of grabbing you by the balls and not letting go.

 

[raoulduke]

Yeah it was that good at the begining. Ive done coke also, VERY good smell through the bag shit, and i though coke was good if you are rich or have a lot of money to throw away. I think dexedrine(dexamphetamine the pure kind not adderall) is a much better exp overall over coke. However the comedown from coke is to me much smoother than the amphetamine comedown. That's the only plus, but the high of coke is also shorter usually gone within an hour if you have a good dose.

 

[raoulduke]

Oh......what i was gonna say is u start depending on amphetamines for pretty much everything like doing homework, going to school, work, etc....untill they dont feel like that anymore(more negative effects and less wat you described) u might start loosing weight, getting paranoid, lossing sleep, start freaking out mabye.....if you use for more than a time a week or so. Do as you like but you'll see that're addictive potential sooner or later.

 

[quintessence]

great report! I also had a spiritual experience on adderall, but I'm not sure I could attribute it to the drug itself since I took so little -- but it does make you more aware, more awake, and you're THINKING more. When your thinking is sped up you can find out a lot Man... I want some now lol

 

[TrippedOutKid]

I must say I adore Adderal or more specifically amphetamine. I may or may not have A.D.D. but it runs in the family and I think the symptoms are there. Either way I couldn't afford to be prescribed it with my insurance because it makes me pay first and then gives me back 80% when I send in a receipt. It's just a waste for me to go in and visit the doctor and get them paying like that all the time when I don't really need that much. (Adderal is scheduled 2 so you have to get it represcribed monthly. No refills)

For me, I don't like to be dependant on any drug at all to function and I sufficiently overcome the 'distrative nature' to live the more basic parts of my life. Adderal comes in handy though for me to study for things that I couldn't normally do so well on and it means a difference in letter grade. Something as big as that is just too much. My last final I got a B on and in a followup course I got a C just now on. I studied with Adderal on the first one, and I went straight studying for this second one. I wish I could get prescribed it.

Another reason I love to take it but not for studying purposes is because of what it does for my personality and soul. It strengthens it over and over and puts more pieces into the puzzle. I become a different person every time I do it because it adds another piece to me. A next stage in development. It's like tripping almost. I see and learn something more each time. If I could do amphetamine for the rest of my life in controleed dosages like a doctor's prescription without side effects, such as brain farts and lower brain chemical levels from prolonged use, I would love to.

To make my point more clear, my friend doesn't like E because it is fake to him or pushy for things that aren't really there. (E and Adderal both have this common amphetamine substance I am fond of) While this may be the case for him, it does actually the opposite for me. My personality is pacifistic, as my profile says, and I try to understand and be compassionate to most people that I meet. I try to reason out why things are the way they are or why people act certain ways. To me it's not fake but enhances and rebuilds what may decay over time in me. It solidifys. This nature about me that I adore so much. I have so much usage and very little negativity with this substance. Mostly if I take too much when I need it I later get tense and clench my jaw which makes some teeth hurt for a couple days. I have used it and methylone in the past for your references.

All in all, I love Adderals or more specifically amphetamine so much that I could never abuse it. My personality is prone to that and my body triggers to defend itself from such things. I try to be pretty health conscious. I just appreciate it way too much to ever abuse it or take away from. I only take it when I believe I need to so there is no need for regular medication. It might be benefitial in the eyes of some doctors but as I just said I don't want to be on a drug to live my life. I don't want to take it everyday. It would take away from how special it is. Waiting a while and not doing something makes you appreciate and enjoy it much more. This is the same way.