GetMeOutOfThisCRAP
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Was prescribed adderall two years ago... low-dose. Basically, in the beginning I wouldn't abuse the darn thing because the paranoia aspect and my tolerance was so low. But fast-forward to now and I'm losing control. It's hard for me to leave it in a drawer and take it some other time. I go through the script in about a week and then always face a depressive episode. I'm not taking ridiculous doses like 300 mg at once a day because my script isn't that large to begin with. But it is starting to affect my life at times--like staying up a whole day or two without any sleep before something really important because I can't control my usage. Has anyone had similar issues with the substance and find it incredibly addicting? I know the obvious answer is to get rid of the script. But whenever I say that I'll finally get rid of it I realize how much I'd miss it. I'd like to find a way to gain self control or set boundaries.. but unsure if that's even possible at this point. It's an incredible antidepressant for me and I'm afraid to face life without it 100%. I've heard so many people say that adderall isn't addictive because it's not like cocaine where you want to redose during the crash, but for me I always redose to escape the crash and it's a vicious cycle that makes me feel bad about myself. People on BL have said that health-wise it's fairly safe even when abused. Is this true?
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