I don't know why, or how, but for the first time in a very long time, this damned inertia was finally broken. I either get wrapped up into fear of dealing with shit after putting it off too long---which makes it worse...or just plain laziness. I guess a great deal of the laziness comes from the fear though. I've still got a shitload to do, there is a big old pile on my desk, but at least I finally
started doing something.
First thing was to make apt with Doc, but they cut off my access to her until I pay for this damn mammogram bill that my insurance I pay $78/wk for no longer does. So, I go to settle the bill, only to find out that work didn't put in my entire check in the bank, DAMN IT! So I had to call back the collection agency to divide the damn payments in half, but my account is gonna be fucked up until they put back $73.00. I was on the phone all morning talking to the Dr.'s office, the collection agency, as well as work over various different things.
By the time I fininshed, it was 2:30pm, so I figured time I quit for a while. I haven't slept, & I thank Christ I'm not having a migraine or terrible w/d's from not having the pills. I think thats bullshit how they cut people off like that, even for an emergency. That's why all the old time docs don't work there anymore, it's become all about the corporation's profits. Shrugs. Whatever. Well, since I am cut off, for at least 2 wks, I have no choice other than to buy some methadone tablets from my friend. He will sell 10 pills 10mg for $20.
I don't even like methadone. In fact, no other drug takes away migraines like my own Rx does, but it's better than nothing. I don't know, maybe that was partly what got me out of hiding. God I hope to hell the damn car keeps working til tomarrow. I didn't think it wise to drive down to AAA---I was going to buy or pay for my membership I let lapse since I've had no car for almost a year. This is kinda shady deal what I got goin, but it's the best I can do. Fuckin pray for me!
started doing something.
First thing was to make apt with Doc, but they cut off my access to her until I pay for this damn mammogram bill that my insurance I pay $78/wk for no longer does. So, I go to settle the bill, only to find out that work didn't put in my entire check in the bank, DAMN IT! So I had to call back the collection agency to divide the damn payments in half, but my account is gonna be fucked up until they put back $73.00. I was on the phone all morning talking to the Dr.'s office, the collection agency, as well as work over various different things.
By the time I fininshed, it was 2:30pm, so I figured time I quit for a while. I haven't slept, & I thank Christ I'm not having a migraine or terrible w/d's from not having the pills. I think thats bullshit how they cut people off like that, even for an emergency. That's why all the old time docs don't work there anymore, it's become all about the corporation's profits. Shrugs. Whatever. Well, since I am cut off, for at least 2 wks, I have no choice other than to buy some methadone tablets from my friend. He will sell 10 pills 10mg for $20.
I don't even like methadone. In fact, no other drug takes away migraines like my own Rx does, but it's better than nothing. I don't know, maybe that was partly what got me out of hiding. God I hope to hell the damn car keeps working til tomarrow. I didn't think it wise to drive down to AAA---I was going to buy or pay for my membership I let lapse since I've had no car for almost a year. This is kinda shady deal what I got goin, but it's the best I can do. Fuckin pray for me!