Acid Revelations

[adamski10]

It'd be stupid to attempt to be annoymus about this, i hope to some extent this dosn't come back and bite me- but as one of the last stages of my rite of passage, i need to understand and share...

i'm quite a strange person, i'm socialy paranoid to the point that i'll sit and stare at the walls trying to understand what to say, when- how i'll be viewed baised on that comment, if its worthy.. i always seem to think i'm making a smart comment when really i'm just showing how stupid i really am. i'm also gay as they come, literally cant get enough of them boys- to the point where i wonder if this damned libido will ever slow down- i do however fucking hate being the gay one 'cause i always fall for the strait ones and that is my biggest problem... i'm a sucker for a cheeky one- and they're all around me at all times. I've come to the conclusion that love overpowers any old drug, but its far far easier to pick up.

I'd read about LSD and it's uses in the 60's, a good friend had experimented earlier in the chapters of time- j needed to see how it would do in this mind... with that set, what conclusions could be made- i was looking for enlightement... chemical enlightenment and this is what i found

The above is my Set... my setting varied throughout this journey.

The Man the acid came from was a visionary, it was only after this journey that i understood where he fits in... i'll forever be in debt to his ultimate mind game... he was my shaman master, teacher. who knew that i was uncontrollable force, that i would do what i would- with or without his advice. so he let me be, gave me the spark to engnite the fuel...



I've been on a journey through the human conciousness- through myself. I learnt the power of LSD on the 27th December 2010- and since that day i have been a vastly changed person... before those drops hit my tounge- i was searching to find my place in this great unfolding tale, was i central to it? how far can our own actions dictate our future etc.... DOUBTS spinning, bouncing and crashing off each other. I was bound by this doubt, bound by this reservation. Acid, that first time- made me look... i was no longer just in a room, just on the street, just walking in a wooded area- i was part of a big organism, self reliant- structualy perfect, energy... moving and flowing within itself, POSITIVITY flowing- infecting every part of my mind... burning the ego SETTING YOU FREE. I no longer had to worry about what others thought, because i was happy with that man in the mirror.

I understood why Timothy Leary wanted to show the world, this world- a world where just sitting, being part of this picture was enough- i'd never experienced something that profound, i'm still glowing from that now.

With more and more experimentation, i walked through so many stages, i feel like i lived life times.

THE STARS, that was the most beautiful of it all- walking by myself at night... walking from that orange hue of street lamps to the actuall darkness- where the stars were. I watched the sky become a spectical of natural wonder- thats when i saw god;. Not like a bearded man, the all mighty human esque figure i;'d thought i was looking for. The truth is god is nothing but energy, creative energy that flows through everything at all times... i can feel god in the wind, in my own breath- in my own existance... i am, my friends are- all expressions of this devine force.


i was shown the beauties, it was time for the contrast- lest i want it, it was going to happen. I was playing with an igniter, playing with fire.... When you start using the links to the gods as a toy, they're sure to teach you.

I now value this world so so much, when before i didn't really give a fuck- i looked after it because thats how i was brought up, mindless sheep positivity is silly... if you're going to do som

A trip can never be bad, it can just challenge you to look at the bigger picture.

A book found me, a book on buddhism, on enlightement- on seeing, i didn't understand the consept, i slept on it and then prepared for a big trip (little did i know it would be the last i can conseve me partaking in- i had already learnt so much, but there was one lesson left to learn)

I watched my best friends inact a play for me, without there knollege-


The extended metaphore: Power.


we live in a world, where human desire can warp judgment- the world can truley be distorted, changed and

AH I CAN NEVER EVER EXPLAIN.., ITS RUGHT IFROUND OF YOUR EYES LOOK
AND YOU WILL SEE







one where i felt my mind melt... where acid showed me that i myself am not indistructable- i am infact as fragile as the rest.

once elightened, i could see the world for what it is... its beauty and its dark side.

I had to complete the task, pay the man his dues for his tales, for the revelations. I boarded the train and entered hell, confusion, parranioa and i felt myself die.. my soul rot through my skin... i was dead. floating, wishing for one last chance. i entered ground level, and it came- the sky opened and i was washed of my sins... i was reborn. i was soaked, cold- my self view removed- floating in this game where i was no longer in charge, i was not empowerd- then the rain washed it all away, i saw the man... payed the debts. the rain stopped. My body broken, my mind fryed- i was no longer the arragoant bouy who thought he knew it all, i was the humbled man who realised that he can never know everything... one of the most important lessons of them all, is realising your just human.

So, being to heven and then to hell-i return to earth with more respect for life than ever.
I have seen the extended metaphore, i can see it wheneever i look in... it is a reminder that perfection exists, but not through my controll, perfection is the divine.

Sorry about the spelling mistakes

Peace and love

x

 

[Fixed5217]

right about acid being good for revelations--with regards to any topic thought is applied to.

Mine was such an epiphany and it will be a tad bit more succinct.

While laying on a dam overlooking a local lake underneath a clear and cold night sky, I realized that the visuals that I saw overlayed on the sky above were the phonemes with regard to my thought. I study math/physics/english, etc. so the schemas i think in were shown to me clearly: integral signs, letters, operators, greek letters, my 540 degree field of vision was covered by the near infinite set of symbols construing meaning to me.

I also ruminated on the biblical or archetypal notions of heaven and hell--not the huxley essay, which is great.
I came to the intro/retro/outro-spective conclusion that they aren't describing place existing in the spatio-temporal continuum--i.e. one can't journey on the highway to hell.
the reality of each is reflected in mental dispositions responding to the bodies somatic markers and each can be similarly experienced then during the conscious(waking life) existence or subconscious reality (dreams).

With that said, both are very real--in the present and experiencing the past or future may also put one in certain body states.

You are responsible for your actions even if no other entity holds you accountable, and life as far as we know it is all we have--that will always be the limit of scientific conclusion or philosophical logical last stop.

DMT studies only show a tiny light behind the curtain and not for certain, so I say this life is all you have and heaven and hell are YOU.

 

[chitownbrown]

the best way i can decscribe the revelations ive had on lsd is that once the drug fully takes ahold of you, you become much more in tune with your subconscious. things that i have neglected to think about or do, things that i have almost forgotten about, random vivid memories/thoughts that come to me out of nowhere, and patterns between my thoughts and visuals that are linked together. recently i realized that one of the reasons i love psychedellics so much is because ever since i was little ive always been differnt, often felt uncomfortable around people and often finding myself with differnt interests than that of my peers. well my mind enjoys that state of being in an altered consious and perceiving things in a way that is unique to myself.

 

[Cloudburst]

So many but top 3 here:

3. How disconnected or desensitized people are given their capacity to empathize with one another that goes largely unused.

2. Awareness of personal problems that needed to be fixed that I had been clueless about before then.

1. Realizing the degree that space-time conforms to everything around me and I myself an essential part of that fabric which could be manipulated by my every movement just as a gravitational planet would, albeit to a less drastic degree. That macroscopic view of everything was simultaneously occurring with a microscopic view, realizing everything, at an atomic level, is all the essentially the same, with everything "inside" me or "on" a couch or "under" a pillow also making me and everything else an essential part of the fabric which penetrates at multiple levels - indicating more than one dimension. With those parallels backs up the concept of everything being related to each other on a level that our minds, that being the closest word to an undefinable term I can think of, create for itself to view the world and being further reinforcement of everything as a complete singularity even with more than one dimension. Why would boundaries (such as be conceived notions of something being outlined to create an object in "normal" perspective) exist, though? I doubt I will ever know... unless I drop acid again.