Trip Shmip
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 21, 2012
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- 7
So I was introduced to MDMA less then a year ago. The problem is that, before that I tried pills only three times, and my first time on MDMA I was given 250ml (quarter of a gram) and was told this is a minimum dosage (the guy is a seriousss mdma abuser.. every week he eats a good 4 pills at the least and can get to where he ate 10 or had more then a gram by himself ( EVERY WEEK !)
I guess the problem had 2 sides to be honest, the first side was him being the way he is, and my side being that I was kind of self destructional back then with a stupid motto of w/e the fuck happens - happens as long as i get a high. It started a bit after I turned 18. (in 10 days I turn 19)
So for a good 2 months I was doing mdma at a minimum dosage of 250 ml , that is 1 hit in a half full cup of water, every 2 -3 days. Would also drink a third in a hit. a few months ago I had a full month that i would snort at least half a gram in a night every friday with a lot of vodka.
This isn't a thread for getting some knowledge because believe me, after all those comedowns ive read enough from MDMA to Philosophy to know just how much I did it wrong and what I need to pay in return for these experiences. This is just me asking should I get checked for some mental illness? I note some OCD symptoms, I check shit a lot. And I sometimes bullshit myself to not doing something because I believe I wont do it properly and rarely I would notice these thoughts have no logic whatsoever. also if I should get checked, how do I go on about doing it? a brain scan? talking to a psychiatric?
I guess the problem had 2 sides to be honest, the first side was him being the way he is, and my side being that I was kind of self destructional back then with a stupid motto of w/e the fuck happens - happens as long as i get a high. It started a bit after I turned 18. (in 10 days I turn 19)
So for a good 2 months I was doing mdma at a minimum dosage of 250 ml , that is 1 hit in a half full cup of water, every 2 -3 days. Would also drink a third in a hit. a few months ago I had a full month that i would snort at least half a gram in a night every friday with a lot of vodka.
This isn't a thread for getting some knowledge because believe me, after all those comedowns ive read enough from MDMA to Philosophy to know just how much I did it wrong and what I need to pay in return for these experiences. This is just me asking should I get checked for some mental illness? I note some OCD symptoms, I check shit a lot. And I sometimes bullshit myself to not doing something because I believe I wont do it properly and rarely I would notice these thoughts have no logic whatsoever. also if I should get checked, how do I go on about doing it? a brain scan? talking to a psychiatric?

