Abuse - Help

[streetdk]

I've been hooked onto Molly and ecstasy for about 12 months now. I roll every month for 1-3 days depending on how long the event is. Each roll, I pop at least 1-2 ecstasy pills and double drop Molly about 1-3 times, so I average around 6-7 pills a night. So if an event were to be 3 days long, I would at least average about 20 (yes, I know that's fucking disgusting and ridiculous, but hey, at least I know I have issues). After the event is over, I usually end up doing 3-5 lines of coke each night. I've also been smoking weed ALL day for about 15 months now. The moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep I take snaps from my bong. Probably 25+ snaps a day. Also smoke around 2-3 blunts a day. I drink here and there, not too often. I'd say once or twice a month, but when I do, I drink about 4 bottles of vodka to the point where I throw up all night. I've also taken LSD a total of 4 times. Each time I've taken about 3 tabs at once, but I don't think this matters at all (please correct me if I'm wrong).

I used to be an extremely intelligent child. Top scores on every test.

I now have tons of issues. Things that were so easy are so much harder now. I have a hard time remembering things. I basically feel stupid, with a huge grey cloud over my head, and always confused. Speaking is sometimes an issue too as I stumble for words and tend to slur at times. Writing is definitely an issue as well since I can't remember half the words, or don't even know if what I'm saying makes sense at times. My most annoying issue is that I can never sleep a night without waking up 6, yes, SIX fucking times every 1-2 hours. Honestly, I had a pretty difficult time typing this thread, and don't even know if each sentence makes sense! Maybe I'm dislexic now? Haha.

What can I do to recover fully? Anything is greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.

 

[MadeInChicago]

Your body cannot begin to repair neurotramitter changes/damage until u stop using. I know this is a difficult journey ahead, but Im just saying. Only then will u see significant improvements in conjunction with ur vitamins and working out.

 

[epic11]

One of the worst abuse of pills and no self control stories ive ever heard. You are right to be questioning things. STOP using mdma all together, and simply dont use it for YEARS. Im talking 5+ years. You have done serious damage that can only be fixed with time. Stick your your workouts and eat healthy food and in time, you will return. Weed isnt too bad, but you are also abusing that. I wouldnt say stop all together, but slow down considerably. Be honest with yourself and listen to your body/mind.

 

[Brahhhh]

Try to stay active, dont worry too much (this can make it much much much worse). Eat well, Sleep well (this can be hard the first months, talking from experience). And above all, No drug use anymore (not a single drug, alcohol included). And do things that will make u happy (but without drugs). If u have any more questions feel free to ask I have alot of experience.

 

[streetdk]

Try to stay active, dont worry too much (this can make it much much much worse). Eat well, Sleep well (this can be hard the first months, talking from experience). And above all, No drug use anymore (not a single drug, alcohol included). And do things that will make u happy (but without drugs). If u have any more questions feel free to ask I have alot of experience.

I smoked some pot last night but only got around 3 hours of sleep (first time smoking in 5-6 days). When I woke up, I was super furious due to the lack of sleep. I threw a tantrum, yelled at everyone, and broke a few things by throwing them. I know I shouldn't have raged like this, and now I've felt terrible all day and wanting to kill myself because of it. I've been keeping my anger in check the past week, but this just broke it. I feel absolutely horrible now and feel like my life is ending. Could it have been the pot? What do?

 

[Brahhhh]

I smoked some pot last night but only got around 3 hours of sleep (first time smoking in 5-6 days). When I woke up, I was super furious due to the lack of sleep. I threw a tantrum, yelled at everyone, and broke a few things by throwing them. I know I shouldn't have raged like this, and now I've felt terrible all day and wanting to kill myself because of it. I've been keeping my anger in check the past week, but this just broke it. I feel absolutely horrible now and feel like my life is ending. Could it have been the pot? What do?

Hmm, well if you don't get aggressive usually and do get aggresive the day right after using pot. Then there seems to be a relationship between the two. I have no experience with being angry or aggresive, but If you want to recover stop using all drugs immediatly!!