Absolution

[Cosmic Mist]

THis is the last time that you will abandon me. I refuse to let your silence cut into me any longer, because in all honesty i cannot bare the the echoing it leaves in my ears...

This is the last time that i will let you hurt me, i promise. No longer will you be able to float in and out of my life like a butterfly made of silt. I will not let you make me think you respect me any longer, when it is so apparent that you no longer give a damn...

THis is the last time you will forget me. THis is the last time you will forget my birthday, my age, my unbreakable connection to you...

This is the last time i will speak to you, call to you, cry for you, hurt over you. This is the last time i will cry for you, wishing you were here to caress me and comfort me, the way you once used to. THis is the last time i will scream your name and wish i knew where you were, or who you've become. This si the last time i will think of you fondly, and hurt when i realise how foreign you have become to me - more distant and far removed than the strangers i pass on the street - at least they acknowledge me as i pass.

This is the last time i wish fr your love and comfort, because i am forcing myself to move on. The mesmerising grip you held over me you have relinquished... i will not wish for it any longer. I will not weep for the love lost or the family left behind.

This is the last time you will abandon me...

This is the last time you will forget me...







...i wish you cared...

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

This also..... like I said in your last piece I commented on....... is something that should be kept in a safe place for future pep talks.
I've been there, like so many of us had. Where we go through these terrible stages of confusion.
We write about being so strong and saying 'fuck you'
to
completely falling apart.
It's so so hard.

I liked this alot also.