SaosinEngaged
Bluelighter
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- Oct 25, 2010
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This one really sucks mentally for me, because I was 100% clean for my wedding and honeymoom this August. I could never have done that to my wife and I dug deep, got myselft straightened out, and enjoyed a good 3 weeks of being opiate free. Of course my situation is complicated by the fact that the majority of my opiates are legally prescribed for injuries sustatained in an accident, but I still have the common issue of enjoying my meds too much and skyrocketing my tolerance.
Anyway, for a combination of issues including pain, stress, and just plain "missing" it, I allowed myself to stupidly get back on the horse. I don't mean taking my relatively smallish prescribed doses, I mean flat out abusing it again. The guilt I've experienced doing this has been the worst part, and yesterday I decided it's time to stop. I can't fill another script until next week, and I can't pick up any in the near future anyway. Time to get this over with and work on the many more important things in my life.
Here's the kicker, I have a demanding and difficult job, and there's no way I can get off for anything more than a day. Knowing that ahead of time, I prepared as best I could for the kick by stocking up on the following:
30g UEI Kratom
1lbs Bali Kratom
15 10mg Diazepam (Valium)
2 .25mg Triazolam (Halcion)
5 .5mg Clonozepam (Klonopin)
20 Ultracet (27.5mg Tramadol/APAP, all I could get)
A few packs of Immodium
A pack of Cimetidine (Tagamet) for (Kratom/Immodium) potentiation purposes ***How does this one interact with benzos?
Yes I know, timing my kick to the beginning of the work week is probably a terrible idea, but I had no choice. Had several unmissable events this past weekend that I needed to be 100% right for, and my supply ran out just yesterday. Absolute WORST case scenario, I may be able to get something tomorrow if this is unbearable.
Anyway, I've w/d many times before, but I've never done it with benzos. Many times in the past I've used Lyrica which worked wonders, but now I no longer have access to that wonderful chemical. So I'm making this topic for specific advice in how to utilize the benzos effectively and safely to make this doable. The worst part of WD for me is always the insomnia. Fuck all the aches, pains, and diarrhea, it's the constant lack of sleep that tortures me in hellish ways. If I can sedate myself into a coma in the evenings I'd like to. I plan to utilize 3g of UEI 3x a day, with a moderate dose of Bali tea inbetween and especially before bed. The tramadol only if I'm really desperate as it won't do much anyway.
Thanks for any and all advice. I'm hoping I've armed myself with enough substances to make this doable having to still be at least somewhat functional at work. (I have my own office, so if I'm sitting there sweating and sickly looking it won't matter much. Obviously I really can't be hunched over my garbage can though
)
Anyway, for a combination of issues including pain, stress, and just plain "missing" it, I allowed myself to stupidly get back on the horse. I don't mean taking my relatively smallish prescribed doses, I mean flat out abusing it again. The guilt I've experienced doing this has been the worst part, and yesterday I decided it's time to stop. I can't fill another script until next week, and I can't pick up any in the near future anyway. Time to get this over with and work on the many more important things in my life.
Here's the kicker, I have a demanding and difficult job, and there's no way I can get off for anything more than a day. Knowing that ahead of time, I prepared as best I could for the kick by stocking up on the following:
30g UEI Kratom
1lbs Bali Kratom
15 10mg Diazepam (Valium)
2 .25mg Triazolam (Halcion)
5 .5mg Clonozepam (Klonopin)
20 Ultracet (27.5mg Tramadol/APAP, all I could get)
A few packs of Immodium
A pack of Cimetidine (Tagamet) for (Kratom/Immodium) potentiation purposes ***How does this one interact with benzos?
Yes I know, timing my kick to the beginning of the work week is probably a terrible idea, but I had no choice. Had several unmissable events this past weekend that I needed to be 100% right for, and my supply ran out just yesterday. Absolute WORST case scenario, I may be able to get something tomorrow if this is unbearable.
Anyway, I've w/d many times before, but I've never done it with benzos. Many times in the past I've used Lyrica which worked wonders, but now I no longer have access to that wonderful chemical. So I'm making this topic for specific advice in how to utilize the benzos effectively and safely to make this doable. The worst part of WD for me is always the insomnia. Fuck all the aches, pains, and diarrhea, it's the constant lack of sleep that tortures me in hellish ways. If I can sedate myself into a coma in the evenings I'd like to. I plan to utilize 3g of UEI 3x a day, with a moderate dose of Bali tea inbetween and especially before bed. The tramadol only if I'm really desperate as it won't do much anyway.
Thanks for any and all advice. I'm hoping I've armed myself with enough substances to make this doable having to still be at least somewhat functional at work. (I have my own office, so if I'm sitting there sweating and sickly looking it won't matter much. Obviously I really can't be hunched over my garbage can though
)
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