soulwentmia
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Ok so last night at 9 i bought a gram of paste and treated it like cocaine, ramming huge lines every hour. I got home at like 3 am with the last line at 2ish.
I proceeded to take 300mg quatiapine IR, 7.5 mg mirtazapine, 40mg propranolol, 450mg pregabalin and 100 mg baclofen. My body as well as my psyche and soul were VERY grateful and i felt uber relaxed. Then, from 3 ish to 8 ish i masturbated like inside of me there are two wolves: one is a degenerate and the other is a sexual predator.
Morning came and weird feelings washed over me and i calculated my options:
1) spend the day in bed, drink a few beers, keep maturbating, take more quatiapine and mirtazapine and hope to crash, thus messing up my entire sleep schedule and rythm which are already tarnished by gabapentinoid addiction
OR
2) make a bomb out of 110mg and ride the day, force myself to clean my disaster of a house, spend time with family and friends, do some self care and attempt to put myself to sleep again at about 8ish or 9
Obviously, by the way i presented the options, i chose nr 2. I'm almost 30 mins in and it hit me and i'll get busy writing a schedule for the day.
The question is, if i don't redose after this bomb, do i have any chances of catching at least 6 hrs of sleep tonight with my meds? Considering my total intake is now about .7 G, i really don't know. Worst thing is, i was already in a small sleep deficit before the first line.
Anyhow, I'll attempt to clean as much of the house as i can and hopefully the tiredness, lack of proper sleep and dopamine+noradrenaline deficit will make me tired by noon. Excuse this tweaker wall of text and also probably the choice of some words and the phrasing as I'm Romanian, and, moreover, a little bit drained and retarded because of the last 24hrs
I proceeded to take 300mg quatiapine IR, 7.5 mg mirtazapine, 40mg propranolol, 450mg pregabalin and 100 mg baclofen. My body as well as my psyche and soul were VERY grateful and i felt uber relaxed. Then, from 3 ish to 8 ish i masturbated like inside of me there are two wolves: one is a degenerate and the other is a sexual predator.
Morning came and weird feelings washed over me and i calculated my options:
1) spend the day in bed, drink a few beers, keep maturbating, take more quatiapine and mirtazapine and hope to crash, thus messing up my entire sleep schedule and rythm which are already tarnished by gabapentinoid addiction
OR
2) make a bomb out of 110mg and ride the day, force myself to clean my disaster of a house, spend time with family and friends, do some self care and attempt to put myself to sleep again at about 8ish or 9
Obviously, by the way i presented the options, i chose nr 2. I'm almost 30 mins in and it hit me and i'll get busy writing a schedule for the day.
The question is, if i don't redose after this bomb, do i have any chances of catching at least 6 hrs of sleep tonight with my meds? Considering my total intake is now about .7 G, i really don't know. Worst thing is, i was already in a small sleep deficit before the first line.
Anyhow, I'll attempt to clean as much of the house as i can and hopefully the tiredness, lack of proper sleep and dopamine+noradrenaline deficit will make me tired by noon. Excuse this tweaker wall of text and also probably the choice of some words and the phrasing as I'm Romanian, and, moreover, a little bit drained and retarded because of the last 24hrs
