Abandon.
7/26/04
Part of me knows that it's
just paranoia, but I can't
seem to stop these thoughts
swirling in my head,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
I'm beginning to think that
you might just choose that desert,
and leave me and this place behind,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
And I hate wanting someone so bad.
without you I feel like an addict
that can't get his fix.
I feel so obsessed and greedy when
it comes to you, like I can't get enough.
And your voice is like music over the phone,
but the distance is torture,
the space between us is killing me,
and time stretches out and slows down
the pain here that I must endure.
I crawl through every day without you
with lower vitality, feeling bitter and afraid,
and I don't want you to be a crutch to
hold up what's left of the mess of me.
And I hate wanting someone so bad.
What ever happened to self-reliance?
What ever happened to my need of no one?
But this feels so right, you feel so right,
and I can't seem to stop these thoughts
swirling on and on in my head tonight,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
I see very clearly my issue with trust,
but this feels so right, you feel so right.
But no matter what you said or how many times,
I just can't seem to trust anything,
anyone completely.
Please, just don't abandon me.
Just don't abandon me.
7/26/04
Part of me knows that it's
just paranoia, but I can't
seem to stop these thoughts
swirling in my head,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
I'm beginning to think that
you might just choose that desert,
and leave me and this place behind,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
And I hate wanting someone so bad.
without you I feel like an addict
that can't get his fix.
I feel so obsessed and greedy when
it comes to you, like I can't get enough.
And your voice is like music over the phone,
but the distance is torture,
the space between us is killing me,
and time stretches out and slows down
the pain here that I must endure.
I crawl through every day without you
with lower vitality, feeling bitter and afraid,
and I don't want you to be a crutch to
hold up what's left of the mess of me.
And I hate wanting someone so bad.
What ever happened to self-reliance?
What ever happened to my need of no one?
But this feels so right, you feel so right,
and I can't seem to stop these thoughts
swirling on and on in my head tonight,
no matter what you said
or how many times.
I see very clearly my issue with trust,
but this feels so right, you feel so right.
But no matter what you said or how many times,
I just can't seem to trust anything,
anyone completely.
Please, just don't abandon me.
Just don't abandon me.
