Sometimes I wonder, if i would have just bought him that shirt that he wanted last year, maybe things would have been different...
Last year he asked for a pair of tan UFOs,
This year he doesnt even wear UFOs anymore
Good thing, i didnt buy them for him anyway.
Last year he wanted me to buy him an iron
Apparently he wasn't going to try to iron out the creases in our relationship
It was just one more thing he would stick in his closet and forget about.
Last year he wanted a record that i couldn't find anywhere,
So i picked out ones i thought he would like
And he set them aside to play in some set that no one ever heard
But yet he smiled and said "I love them."
Last year he wanted this Ecko shirt that he just had to have...
And he got that
Shirts like that really make a great nightshirt for ex-girlfriends.
Last year i asked for some old stuffed animals on Ebay... Popples, remember those?
And i got them, one of each color.
Along with a school girl outfit that i didn't ask for...
(I guess that was more a present for him, in the long run)
But maybe i should have asked for honesty.
Can they wrap up honesty in a box and tie it with a pretty bow?
I wouldn't even be picky about the color...
I asked for an electric blanket,
I thought it would get me through a lot of cold nights
And i got it, and it did...
But maybe i should have asked for loyalty.
They were probably all out of my size,
But i would have even settled for some loyalty from the Clearance rack...
Cuz i still have the electric blanket,
But it doesn't do much for the cold lonely nights anymore.
Last year i asked for a pair of shoes
You got me a pair of trendy Nikes, and a whole outfit to go with them, even though the pants were a color a hate, and the shirt was not my style.
But you wanted me to look good, cuz after all, you had to be seen with me...
Maybe i should have asked for some kind words...
Even if it was just one or two,
Even if they were second-hand, and not brand-name,
Just one or two kind words,
Maybe then when you bought me all those angry, hateful words for my birthday when you were mad at me,
I could have pulled out that box of kind words, and forgiven you.
This year he asked for a record box, and a Pioneer mixer, and more records that i won't be able to find.
And me...?
I thought about pulling out that year-old Christmas list,
Not the one i wrote on the edge of a napkin,
But the one i keep in the back of my mind
I thought about giving him this little list,
[*]The truth
[*]An apology
[/list]
But then i realized that he would just laugh it off and buy me hundreds of dollars worth of name-brand clothes,
And that would make me forget...
And maybe some people would,
But not me.
I wonder again to myself why we are even bothering to sit down next to a beautiful tree this Christmas, late at night, under the twinkling lights, while our relationship (or whatever you want to call it) isn't nearly as beautiful?
All these material things, wrapped carefully in colorful cheery wrap, that's all we have left. We have more for each other inside those boxes than we have in our hearts.
But i tuck that year-long list away in my mind and scribble down "shoes" on a paper.
He's better at giving things that have a price tag, than that have meaning.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
Find one person you can count on forever, one person you can love forever, and one person you can be with forever... and if you're lucky, it will all be the same person.
"Live for the memories."
[This message has been edited by E-girl (edited 01 December 2001).]
Last year he asked for a pair of tan UFOs,
This year he doesnt even wear UFOs anymore
Good thing, i didnt buy them for him anyway.
Last year he wanted me to buy him an iron
Apparently he wasn't going to try to iron out the creases in our relationship
It was just one more thing he would stick in his closet and forget about.
Last year he wanted a record that i couldn't find anywhere,
So i picked out ones i thought he would like
And he set them aside to play in some set that no one ever heard
But yet he smiled and said "I love them."
Last year he wanted this Ecko shirt that he just had to have...
And he got that
Shirts like that really make a great nightshirt for ex-girlfriends.
Last year i asked for some old stuffed animals on Ebay... Popples, remember those?
And i got them, one of each color.
Along with a school girl outfit that i didn't ask for...
(I guess that was more a present for him, in the long run)
But maybe i should have asked for honesty.
Can they wrap up honesty in a box and tie it with a pretty bow?
I wouldn't even be picky about the color...
I asked for an electric blanket,
I thought it would get me through a lot of cold nights
And i got it, and it did...
But maybe i should have asked for loyalty.
They were probably all out of my size,
But i would have even settled for some loyalty from the Clearance rack...
Cuz i still have the electric blanket,
But it doesn't do much for the cold lonely nights anymore.
Last year i asked for a pair of shoes
You got me a pair of trendy Nikes, and a whole outfit to go with them, even though the pants were a color a hate, and the shirt was not my style.
But you wanted me to look good, cuz after all, you had to be seen with me...
Maybe i should have asked for some kind words...
Even if it was just one or two,
Even if they were second-hand, and not brand-name,
Just one or two kind words,
Maybe then when you bought me all those angry, hateful words for my birthday when you were mad at me,
I could have pulled out that box of kind words, and forgiven you.
This year he asked for a record box, and a Pioneer mixer, and more records that i won't be able to find.
And me...?
I thought about pulling out that year-old Christmas list,
Not the one i wrote on the edge of a napkin,
But the one i keep in the back of my mind
I thought about giving him this little list,
[*]The truth
[*]An apology
[/list]
But then i realized that he would just laugh it off and buy me hundreds of dollars worth of name-brand clothes,
And that would make me forget...
And maybe some people would,
But not me.
I wonder again to myself why we are even bothering to sit down next to a beautiful tree this Christmas, late at night, under the twinkling lights, while our relationship (or whatever you want to call it) isn't nearly as beautiful?
All these material things, wrapped carefully in colorful cheery wrap, that's all we have left. We have more for each other inside those boxes than we have in our hearts.
But i tuck that year-long list away in my mind and scribble down "shoes" on a paper.
He's better at giving things that have a price tag, than that have meaning.
------------------
E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
Find one person you can count on forever, one person you can love forever, and one person you can be with forever... and if you're lucky, it will all be the same person.
"Live for the memories."
[This message has been edited by E-girl (edited 01 December 2001).]
