So here i am and the holiday season is nearly upon us again. Time to get ready to buy gifts for the immediate family and maybe try and give something to a few friends of mine that mean alot to me. God knows not all the money in the world would repay them though.
It's almost december and i am honestly at a loss as to what to do with my future. This time last year i was planning to go to Ontario with my g/f and i eventually did but that got fucked up through no fault of my own. So i ended up coming back to this shithole of a rural ghetto and im back to square one
I have a few choices that i could maybe do. 1 is get a place in the city here and go to school. I wouldnt mind getting a place of my own and it would actually be nice to have a place i could call my own too. MINE ALL MINE! Except i don't know anyone at all really in the city here anymore and i could end up getting very bored and hating the place. That might lead to me doing some not so healthy things to relieve the boredom such as drinking, smoking crack or shooting coke. Speedballs to get through the day.
Another option is try and pony up the cash to get a place with my g/f and move in with her. This time we wouldnt have a interfering room mate fucking with our relationship so that would be one thing going for us right there. Plus ive had no closure at all on our relationship as we didnt break up or anything at all like that i just left because i got pneumonia and couldnt pay the $60 up front to go to the walk in clinics. The hospitals up there are beyond fucking useless as well
. Thanks alot jerks you couldnt even diagnose pneumonia 
. I definetely feel like i have to give it another go if for no other reason then to get some closure on this whole situation. It's pretty much been eating me up ever since i left her. I have honestly never felt so low as the time when i hugged and kissed her and we said goodbye. I had to leave her and that gutted me beyond words.
So as another year is almost done im left thinking that this was one hell of a year that is for sure. What have i got to show for it? Im no farther ahead then i was before and im in the exact same place as i was last year only with less hope. So where did this year get me really? Well ok i finally got to meet the girl i love more then anything else on this planet so atleast the first part of this year was awesome. It's too bad that the spring, summer and fall sucked balls .
I hope things turn around soon.
It's almost december and i am honestly at a loss as to what to do with my future. This time last year i was planning to go to Ontario with my g/f and i eventually did but that got fucked up through no fault of my own. So i ended up coming back to this shithole of a rural ghetto and im back to square one
I have a few choices that i could maybe do. 1 is get a place in the city here and go to school. I wouldnt mind getting a place of my own and it would actually be nice to have a place i could call my own too. MINE ALL MINE! Except i don't know anyone at all really in the city here anymore and i could end up getting very bored and hating the place. That might lead to me doing some not so healthy things to relieve the boredom such as drinking, smoking crack or shooting coke. Speedballs to get through the day.
Another option is try and pony up the cash to get a place with my g/f and move in with her. This time we wouldnt have a interfering room mate fucking with our relationship so that would be one thing going for us right there. Plus ive had no closure at all on our relationship as we didnt break up or anything at all like that i just left because i got pneumonia and couldnt pay the $60 up front to go to the walk in clinics. The hospitals up there are beyond fucking useless as well
. Thanks alot jerks you couldnt even diagnose pneumonia . I definetely feel like i have to give it another go if for no other reason then to get some closure on this whole situation. It's pretty much been eating me up ever since i left her. I have honestly never felt so low as the time when i hugged and kissed her and we said goodbye. I had to leave her and that gutted me beyond words.So as another year is almost done im left thinking that this was one hell of a year that is for sure. What have i got to show for it? Im no farther ahead then i was before and im in the exact same place as i was last year only with less hope. So where did this year get me really? Well ok i finally got to meet the girl i love more then anything else on this planet so atleast the first part of this year was awesome. It's too bad that the spring, summer and fall sucked balls
.I hope things turn around soon.
