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fizzygirl

fizzygirl

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A year ago yesterday i felt that life would never
be
what
i wanted it to be…
i felt trapped in something that i started
and it had snowballed, growing ever larger-
until it was no longer me, and
i could not be found in it...
A year ago today i became so aware
of my feelings, that
even though i felt so selfish-
i listened to them and
acted upon them
and broke someone’s heart-
while saving my own
from dying
A year ago tomorrow i was terrified
of all
that was out there...hesitant of what i
might find-unsure of my choices
ready to change my mind, almost
almost, but, not, quite
today
i did not realize that
this day would mean so much
that
this year had been so difficult and yet,
so wonderful and that i have
proven to myself that i am
wondrous and beautiful and intelligent and strong and joyful enough
to stand on my own two feet
and walk out into the world...
 
Incredible!
Sometimes we end up hurting others while saving ourselves. You seem to have taken healthy steps along the road of self-discovery.
Nice piece of writing. Thank you for sharing it.
Hugs,
Caress
 
hrm...so now its been 2 years i suppose, and ive found that everything i thought i had known then has been re-written and re-strung, to the extent that i feel that any progress becomes nothing when compared to what may follow it....
heres a lifetime of realizing that all my past realizations pale in comparison
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GO YOU!
i think that's how most things are in life.... they suck at the time, but when you look back, it usually wasn't so bad. you gotta go through the bad to get to the good!
its always good to look back and realize how strong you've become from things. i hope someday soon i can look back and say the same.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"There's a part of me, that i forgot to be. Take a look and see, the light still shines in me." ~~ Milk, Inc.
 
ok first of all caress. wow i havent talked to you in forever. ok but now to be serious....
even though we sometimes hurt others to save ourselves what about when your the one who is hurt so someone else could be happy. for some reason i have been on the recieving end of hurtfullness 3 tmes because someone else decided to take that big step into the unkown. i hoped that i would never do that. but today i found myself hurting someone deeply so that i could take a big step into the future of what will be the rest of my life. maybe i opened up and veered alitte off the subject but........i am glad i have realized that there are other places than social.
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Do i really need one of these?
[This message has been edited by cloud 9 (edited 19 September 2001).]
 
Brooke,
These words brought tears to my eyes...I've been on the giving as well as the receiving end of things and neither is very fun...the easiest thing is, to realize that you need to make a change but the hardest thing is actually taking the steps to change...
that i am
wondrous and beautiful and intelligent and strong and joyful enough
to stand on my own two feet
and walk out into the world...
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indeed you are, girl!!!
[This message has been edited by alykitty (edited 19 September 2001).]
 
(Will there ever come a day when alykitty stops reading my mind? I hope not.
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Miss Fizz = I can feel every word of what you're saying... it applies to so many days of my own. No one likes to give or take pain, but I suppose without it we wouldn't appreciate the joys in between.
Beautiful girl, just like you.
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A year ago today i became so aware
of my feelings, that
even though i felt so selfish-
i listened to them and acted upon them
and broke someone’s heart-
while saving my own from dying
Click to expand...
It's been a year for me too. And these words ring true, especially right now.
 
Brooke, I am so lucky to have met someone as beautiful and intelligent as you. I am glad to see you are happy and that you are that way because of you. You are a great person and I can't wait to see you again.
 
A year ago, you asked a stranger.."Are you Brownman?" Three words that changed your life forever.
It has been truly rewarding watching you find who you are in a matter of one year.
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Brownie
 
Awww...
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{{{Hugz Fizzy}}}
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"Learning to love someone is more than enough to get me
high"
 
It is amazing how much you can get to know yourself in a year, if you just let yourself.
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In the past year, like you, I have proven to myself that fear was holding me back and that I CAN stand on my own two feet. So glad to see that you have found peace with yourself...everyone deserves that! Good words
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Finding my way back to sanity, again. Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there.
 
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