That's my brother, to put it bluntly. It's hard to think about this, because we are family and everything, but he really just sucks anymore. It's almost as if he knows nobody believes a word he says about anything so he just constantly has to shift "what he meant to say" around after being corrected about something.
He just doesn't really bring anything to the table, yet always wants a seat at it. And he's such a fucking bitch when he owes you something. He gets all fake concerned about the situation, like he'll sport a real quiet voice and slouch his shoulders, avoid eye contact, all that usual spineless bullshit. And he'll try to do trivial shit for you without asking you first out of some innate need to try to get more even with you (dude, I can bring my own laundry downstairs, just give me the fucking money you owe me).
Seriously, I've always had the thought that you can tell how much of an annoyance you are by how often you have to apologize to people. As much as I might be standoffish and overly frank sometimes, I very rarely disrespect someone to the point where I have to apologize for something. It happens every now and then like it does to us all, but my brother is constantly saying "my bad". In that defeated pussy ass voice he gets
"o my bad dude..."
god damn it's so pathetic it makes me angry just hearing it. I might be a bit spartan when it comes to showing of emotion in real life but I just am under the belief that emotion is best held in check in favor of a steady and calm attitude.
Im not sure what im even trying to say here but if you ever fuck something up, don't create some fabricated disappointment with yourself in order to make it seem like you truly care about what you fucked up, just own up to it and learn from it. Everyone makes mistakes, it's only jackasses who make the same mistakes over and over again.
And at this point I don't even know how we are going to interact when I move out. Part of me really wanted to help and be a part of creating his idea for a cartoon show considering I had always thought it would be cool to be a writer since it would get me paid to do something that always just kind of came easy to me which is make people laugh. But the more I got involved the more I realized us working together just wouldn't work out. He thinks he's funnier than he actually is, and I have no idea what kind of humor to even aim for. Is it for mature audiences? Can I use the f bomb? Is this planned for HBO or something like Cartoon Network?
he doesn't really know any of that kind of stuff, which leaves me somewhat in the dark about how to approach it. I still think I wrote some funny ass shit, but that would have happened regardless of how little I had to go on.
I know it's not exactly the greatest talent to brag about, but I have met very few people who can be bigger smart-asses than myself. My brother is one, albeit in a very crude and immature way, and my Grandfather is the other. When all three of us get to talking it really is always a hilarious conversation. Usually because my brother will say something incredibly false and my grandfather and I just rip him to shreds.
I guess my entire family are smart asses actually, and it makes you hone your craft from an early age. People say "sticks and stones may break..." and all that nonsense but it's just that, nonsense. I can make someone feel far worse than a punch to the stomach using only my mouth and it takes a lot less effort than throwing a punch too.
It may seem like I post some extremely long thoughts sometimes, and that is true to a certain extent. They are long posts, but more or less 10/10 times it is just exactly what first comes to mind. When you can immediately insult someone in your mind and have no qualms about being known as kind of a negative person, you are bound to rub some people the wrong way.
Now a lot of people probably also think I get overly mad about things.
Let me explain what I notice in the lounge:
Person 1: says something insulting about person 2 after feeling like they are acting like a jackass
Person 2: responds with another hastily assembled and poorly thought out insult back to person 1
Person 1: responds with a lengthy post more or less making person 2 feel like a complete idiot
Person 2: informs Person 1 that they take things too seriously and just got trolled
No bro, trolling means you make someone believe something that they know not to be true in their hearts. I still think Person 2 is a faggot, and you can call me mad all you want, you still just got made fun of and it took me around the same amount of time it takes to wipe my ass.
A lot of people think I sit at my PC all day logged into bluelight just looking for people to make fun of. In actuality, I mostly post via Mobile and considering all you have to do is go in the lounge and people more or less make fun of themselves, no shit I'm going to have a high post count.
The only ones who seem to have a problem are the ones who think I take things too seriously. I do take Bluelight seriously about somethings, considering I have gotten to know a lot of really interesting and helpful people on here, I take that very serious.
But to use that as an argument simply to try and save face after a failed war of words, that is seriously some lame ass shit
Now that this blog turned into another rant with no logical order or structure, I'm going to go smoke a cig and wonder why I just typed out any of this
He just doesn't really bring anything to the table, yet always wants a seat at it. And he's such a fucking bitch when he owes you something. He gets all fake concerned about the situation, like he'll sport a real quiet voice and slouch his shoulders, avoid eye contact, all that usual spineless bullshit. And he'll try to do trivial shit for you without asking you first out of some innate need to try to get more even with you (dude, I can bring my own laundry downstairs, just give me the fucking money you owe me).
Seriously, I've always had the thought that you can tell how much of an annoyance you are by how often you have to apologize to people. As much as I might be standoffish and overly frank sometimes, I very rarely disrespect someone to the point where I have to apologize for something. It happens every now and then like it does to us all, but my brother is constantly saying "my bad". In that defeated pussy ass voice he gets
"o my bad dude..."
god damn it's so pathetic it makes me angry just hearing it. I might be a bit spartan when it comes to showing of emotion in real life but I just am under the belief that emotion is best held in check in favor of a steady and calm attitude.
Im not sure what im even trying to say here but if you ever fuck something up, don't create some fabricated disappointment with yourself in order to make it seem like you truly care about what you fucked up, just own up to it and learn from it. Everyone makes mistakes, it's only jackasses who make the same mistakes over and over again.
And at this point I don't even know how we are going to interact when I move out. Part of me really wanted to help and be a part of creating his idea for a cartoon show considering I had always thought it would be cool to be a writer since it would get me paid to do something that always just kind of came easy to me which is make people laugh. But the more I got involved the more I realized us working together just wouldn't work out. He thinks he's funnier than he actually is, and I have no idea what kind of humor to even aim for. Is it for mature audiences? Can I use the f bomb? Is this planned for HBO or something like Cartoon Network?
he doesn't really know any of that kind of stuff, which leaves me somewhat in the dark about how to approach it. I still think I wrote some funny ass shit, but that would have happened regardless of how little I had to go on.
I know it's not exactly the greatest talent to brag about, but I have met very few people who can be bigger smart-asses than myself. My brother is one, albeit in a very crude and immature way, and my Grandfather is the other. When all three of us get to talking it really is always a hilarious conversation. Usually because my brother will say something incredibly false and my grandfather and I just rip him to shreds.
I guess my entire family are smart asses actually, and it makes you hone your craft from an early age. People say "sticks and stones may break..." and all that nonsense but it's just that, nonsense. I can make someone feel far worse than a punch to the stomach using only my mouth and it takes a lot less effort than throwing a punch too.
It may seem like I post some extremely long thoughts sometimes, and that is true to a certain extent. They are long posts, but more or less 10/10 times it is just exactly what first comes to mind. When you can immediately insult someone in your mind and have no qualms about being known as kind of a negative person, you are bound to rub some people the wrong way.
Now a lot of people probably also think I get overly mad about things.
Let me explain what I notice in the lounge:
Person 1: says something insulting about person 2 after feeling like they are acting like a jackass
Person 2: responds with another hastily assembled and poorly thought out insult back to person 1
Person 1: responds with a lengthy post more or less making person 2 feel like a complete idiot
Person 2: informs Person 1 that they take things too seriously and just got trolled
No bro, trolling means you make someone believe something that they know not to be true in their hearts. I still think Person 2 is a faggot, and you can call me mad all you want, you still just got made fun of and it took me around the same amount of time it takes to wipe my ass.
A lot of people think I sit at my PC all day logged into bluelight just looking for people to make fun of. In actuality, I mostly post via Mobile and considering all you have to do is go in the lounge and people more or less make fun of themselves, no shit I'm going to have a high post count.
The only ones who seem to have a problem are the ones who think I take things too seriously. I do take Bluelight seriously about somethings, considering I have gotten to know a lot of really interesting and helpful people on here, I take that very serious.
But to use that as an argument simply to try and save face after a failed war of words, that is seriously some lame ass shit
Now that this blog turned into another rant with no logical order or structure, I'm going to go smoke a cig and wonder why I just typed out any of this