Chasing a dragon to feel my own mortality;
A predisposed failure - unknowingly.
So desperate to appease, these shadow's stalking me.
Yet, the faces of the well-known are frowning.
Onto this elusive path that I track night and day;
Into a vehement vortex - spiraling.
My mental sanity - frayed
After these years of abuse and self-mutilating.
It is I that have lost my own way...
I who has been swept under the waves
Beneath this ebbing undertow;
Deeper than I did ever mean to go.
And a blanket of blackness now covers me;
Emotions cut deep, but can not reach.
All the while, so desperate to appease
These shrouding shadow's stalking.
In this final breath I ask what it is that I have now?
Not one damn thing, but half-forgotten dreams.
Oh! This looming feeling of my own demise,
Discernment creeping over as I close my eyes.
A predisposed failure - unknowingly.
So desperate to appease, these shadow's stalking me.
Yet, the faces of the well-known are frowning.
Onto this elusive path that I track night and day;
Into a vehement vortex - spiraling.
My mental sanity - frayed
After these years of abuse and self-mutilating.
It is I that have lost my own way...
I who has been swept under the waves
Beneath this ebbing undertow;
Deeper than I did ever mean to go.
And a blanket of blackness now covers me;
Emotions cut deep, but can not reach.
All the while, so desperate to appease
These shrouding shadow's stalking.
In this final breath I ask what it is that I have now?
Not one damn thing, but half-forgotten dreams.
Oh! This looming feeling of my own demise,
Discernment creeping over as I close my eyes.