Stimheadbeendead
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- Jul 7, 2023
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FINALLY after 6 years of looking up harm reduction on BL I finally made an account.
So I want to start this off by saying that I KNOW that what I have done is not smart or harm reductive which is why I’m here.
So I get drug tested pretty often at my job. And I remember back in 2015, the time I smoked Flakka (A-PVP) for the first time. I did it for 2 weeks and throught that it would be a good idea to take 1000mg (1g) of seroquel to fall asleep and take benzos and Suboxone the next day. I guess that mixture through me into a psychotic episode and I ended up in the psych ward for 3 days. My only other experience with RCs is all the psychedelic chemicals they produce way way back 9 years ago. 2c-I was cool but a little to aggressive in visuals for me. Which brings me to today. 2023
As I said I get drug tested often, and typically if I’m not getting tested im a weekend crack warrior, they meth is hard to find here in Florida. I have ADHD and the remove of racing thoughts from stimulants makes me want to break down and cry sometimes.
So my dealer ran out of crack one time and all he had was “Molly” so I said “Ight that’s fine”, and I get about 5 grams for a very affordable price. Except obviously this wasn’t Molly. I was on a bad come down from crack and I just needed to stop craving the drug so I took what I thought was a safe dose.
Nothing bad happened. Except I LOVED WHAT I WAS FEELING AND I WANTED MORE OF IT. I’ve never been addicted to something like this before. So like I do on any stimulant I wanted to research what I had. And where I could find it. (I know it’s not safe to buy random chemicals off the street, but unfortunately you guys are not allowed to share vendors and I can’t find anything but company's that only sell to other company’s.
A lot of RC stims look alike crystal, powder, white off white, yellow, brown. Ect. Now I know that most of you are going to tell me we have no idea of knowing that I should go get it tested. And I probably will and I ever find the actual time to do it.
Now Everything I’ve read about RC stims characteristic side effects points to A-PVP which is what we call (flakka) here in florida. There’s just a couple things that throw me off.
1) I’ve never seen flakka in off white yellow crystal
2) It got banned, and taken off the streets and China cracked down hard on this stuff and the supply just stopped in 2015.
Current effects
1) Urge to redose every 20 minutes if I vape it out of a meth pipe (it smokes almost as good as meth maybe better) if I take oral I can usually wait 2-3 hours before redosing again. I’ve been doing this 2 weeks and I’m sleeping every other day and making sure I get enough sleep on weekends and constant naps when I’m not high.
2) when I take it orally I feel like I get a much better euphoria effect that last a lot longer that vaping it which is weird to me why I vape it all the time probably because the effects are not as powerful and I’m scared to take more.
3) the side effects are HORRIBLE. I’ve been to the hospital twice so far because I keep convincing myself I’m having a heart attack when it’s just a panic attack and vascular constrictions tachycardia’s ect
NOW
IF THIS FLAKKA THEN IVE BEEN DOING WAY TO BIG OF DOSES. I just bought a scale and my eyeballing was on point. But I didn’t know the APVP dose was only 25mg . I just weighed out what I usually take and it’s anywhere from 200-600 mg daily. And my tolerance is already up there now and I don’t know what to do. I feel like this stuff is going to kill me if I don’t stop. But I can’t stop.
I know I’m doing damage to my heart, I’m definitely a hypochondriac. Though too and the hospital knows it.
I wish I had a source to buy from so that I can stop this stuff.
Anyways, there it is, finished the work week out with 60 hours and suffered from heat exhaustion from work yesterday and psyched myself into thinking I’m going to get hyperthermia or a heat stroke because I was on this stuff. Truck has no AC they fixed it today.
Do you think my assumption it right? I mean I do live in Florida.
P.S nobody ever knows I’m high on this stuff it’s crazy. I try to prevent all psychotic symptoms. And like adderal this stuff calms me down so I just seem normal to other people. Except if I do way to much! Like I did when I first started forgetting that I was taking anti depressants and put myself into serotonin syndrome.
So I want to start this off by saying that I KNOW that what I have done is not smart or harm reductive which is why I’m here.
So I get drug tested pretty often at my job. And I remember back in 2015, the time I smoked Flakka (A-PVP) for the first time. I did it for 2 weeks and throught that it would be a good idea to take 1000mg (1g) of seroquel to fall asleep and take benzos and Suboxone the next day. I guess that mixture through me into a psychotic episode and I ended up in the psych ward for 3 days. My only other experience with RCs is all the psychedelic chemicals they produce way way back 9 years ago. 2c-I was cool but a little to aggressive in visuals for me. Which brings me to today. 2023
As I said I get drug tested often, and typically if I’m not getting tested im a weekend crack warrior, they meth is hard to find here in Florida. I have ADHD and the remove of racing thoughts from stimulants makes me want to break down and cry sometimes.
So my dealer ran out of crack one time and all he had was “Molly” so I said “Ight that’s fine”, and I get about 5 grams for a very affordable price. Except obviously this wasn’t Molly. I was on a bad come down from crack and I just needed to stop craving the drug so I took what I thought was a safe dose.
Nothing bad happened. Except I LOVED WHAT I WAS FEELING AND I WANTED MORE OF IT. I’ve never been addicted to something like this before. So like I do on any stimulant I wanted to research what I had. And where I could find it. (I know it’s not safe to buy random chemicals off the street, but unfortunately you guys are not allowed to share vendors and I can’t find anything but company's that only sell to other company’s.
A lot of RC stims look alike crystal, powder, white off white, yellow, brown. Ect. Now I know that most of you are going to tell me we have no idea of knowing that I should go get it tested. And I probably will and I ever find the actual time to do it.
Now Everything I’ve read about RC stims characteristic side effects points to A-PVP which is what we call (flakka) here in florida. There’s just a couple things that throw me off.
1) I’ve never seen flakka in off white yellow crystal
2) It got banned, and taken off the streets and China cracked down hard on this stuff and the supply just stopped in 2015.
Current effects
1) Urge to redose every 20 minutes if I vape it out of a meth pipe (it smokes almost as good as meth maybe better) if I take oral I can usually wait 2-3 hours before redosing again. I’ve been doing this 2 weeks and I’m sleeping every other day and making sure I get enough sleep on weekends and constant naps when I’m not high.
2) when I take it orally I feel like I get a much better euphoria effect that last a lot longer that vaping it which is weird to me why I vape it all the time probably because the effects are not as powerful and I’m scared to take more.
3) the side effects are HORRIBLE. I’ve been to the hospital twice so far because I keep convincing myself I’m having a heart attack when it’s just a panic attack and vascular constrictions tachycardia’s ect
NOW
IF THIS FLAKKA THEN IVE BEEN DOING WAY TO BIG OF DOSES. I just bought a scale and my eyeballing was on point. But I didn’t know the APVP dose was only 25mg . I just weighed out what I usually take and it’s anywhere from 200-600 mg daily. And my tolerance is already up there now and I don’t know what to do. I feel like this stuff is going to kill me if I don’t stop. But I can’t stop.
I know I’m doing damage to my heart, I’m definitely a hypochondriac. Though too and the hospital knows it.
I wish I had a source to buy from so that I can stop this stuff.
Anyways, there it is, finished the work week out with 60 hours and suffered from heat exhaustion from work yesterday and psyched myself into thinking I’m going to get hyperthermia or a heat stroke because I was on this stuff. Truck has no AC they fixed it today.
Do you think my assumption it right? I mean I do live in Florida.
P.S nobody ever knows I’m high on this stuff it’s crazy. I try to prevent all psychotic symptoms. And like adderal this stuff calms me down so I just seem normal to other people. Except if I do way to much! Like I did when I first started forgetting that I was taking anti depressants and put myself into serotonin syndrome.
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