Jeffedelic
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**Sorry for the long post, cliff notes at the bottom.
So lately I have encountered a problem that worries me greatly. I love psychedelics and have indulged in them countless times over the past two or so years, but recently they have been acting a bit... strange; or causing me to act a bit strange, depending on point of view.
It all started at Bonnaroo. Before the festival, I had a decent number of trips under my belt, somewhere around 30, both at festivals and in my home town. Substances ranging from LSD to Mushrooms to Mescaline and several unknown RCs mixed in. When I low dosed at the festival (1 hit of clean liquid) I seemed to trip way too hard. I was completely out there and loving it, but at a certain point I just became delusional and completely forgot I was tripping. I completely believed things that were not true, thought things were happening that were not happening and at the end had very little memory of the night.At the time I attributed it to just getting much better product than I had bargained for, which is nothing to complain about.
Later on, probably 3 trips later, the same thing happens again on LSD. This time it was worse. I got very worked up from a movie that was on and could not calm down for hours until my trip dropped off. Seeing a relation between a loud festival and a loud crazy movie, I began to think that I was just getting too worked up during my trips and it was causing the semi black outs and delusional behavior.
A trip or two later it happens again on acid, but this time I had not gotten worked up or been uncomfortable or anything. I was fine and having a great time, then my buddies put on the doors movie and about half way through I just lost it again, completely out of it and unable to understand reality in the least. I began to think I just needed a break from the acid for a little bit, so I found myself some psilocybe weilii.
The same thing ended up happening here too. I was fine for the peak, then on the comedown I simply became delusional, was running around outside thinking if the cops came it would be fine because I had crazy connections, I smashed my phone thinking I was about to get really rich so it didn't matter, I was going to change the world, some shit about space travel, etc etc. The same things you always see and think, but I simply believed it and had no recollection of actually eating mushrooms. Same as the LSD had done times before.
Mind you, these have been fairly low doses. 1 hit at roo, 2 hits the second time, 1 hit the third and 2.5g dried the last. These are doses that normally would be no problem at all to me. I could go out in public on these doses in the middle of the day and nobody would suspect a thing. What concerns me is that all of a sudden this pops up and is becomming more and more frequent. I really see a lot of potential in psychedelics so its upsetting to think that I might not should be taking them. It's to the point where I do not want to trip at all if this is going to keep happening. Coming to alone in your car is a scary thing.
My only good guess is that prolonged psych use has caused me to need to dose lower amounts than when I first started and that lower doses are beginning to cause me to slip into ego death without expecting it. Ego death on a low dose can be a scary thing if you aren't expecting it.
Any thoughts? I haven't ingested any psychedelics in about 6 months now and could really go for a spin. I just don't know what to think of this whole ordeal.
Any help would be appreciated.
Thank you all for your time!
**TLDR; I used to trip all the time, but now even low doses cause me to become delusional and blacked out. I don't know why this is happening but have some guesses, mainly having to do with ego death.
So lately I have encountered a problem that worries me greatly. I love psychedelics and have indulged in them countless times over the past two or so years, but recently they have been acting a bit... strange; or causing me to act a bit strange, depending on point of view.
It all started at Bonnaroo. Before the festival, I had a decent number of trips under my belt, somewhere around 30, both at festivals and in my home town. Substances ranging from LSD to Mushrooms to Mescaline and several unknown RCs mixed in. When I low dosed at the festival (1 hit of clean liquid) I seemed to trip way too hard. I was completely out there and loving it, but at a certain point I just became delusional and completely forgot I was tripping. I completely believed things that were not true, thought things were happening that were not happening and at the end had very little memory of the night.At the time I attributed it to just getting much better product than I had bargained for, which is nothing to complain about.
Later on, probably 3 trips later, the same thing happens again on LSD. This time it was worse. I got very worked up from a movie that was on and could not calm down for hours until my trip dropped off. Seeing a relation between a loud festival and a loud crazy movie, I began to think that I was just getting too worked up during my trips and it was causing the semi black outs and delusional behavior.
A trip or two later it happens again on acid, but this time I had not gotten worked up or been uncomfortable or anything. I was fine and having a great time, then my buddies put on the doors movie and about half way through I just lost it again, completely out of it and unable to understand reality in the least. I began to think I just needed a break from the acid for a little bit, so I found myself some psilocybe weilii.
The same thing ended up happening here too. I was fine for the peak, then on the comedown I simply became delusional, was running around outside thinking if the cops came it would be fine because I had crazy connections, I smashed my phone thinking I was about to get really rich so it didn't matter, I was going to change the world, some shit about space travel, etc etc. The same things you always see and think, but I simply believed it and had no recollection of actually eating mushrooms. Same as the LSD had done times before.
Mind you, these have been fairly low doses. 1 hit at roo, 2 hits the second time, 1 hit the third and 2.5g dried the last. These are doses that normally would be no problem at all to me. I could go out in public on these doses in the middle of the day and nobody would suspect a thing. What concerns me is that all of a sudden this pops up and is becomming more and more frequent. I really see a lot of potential in psychedelics so its upsetting to think that I might not should be taking them. It's to the point where I do not want to trip at all if this is going to keep happening. Coming to alone in your car is a scary thing.
My only good guess is that prolonged psych use has caused me to need to dose lower amounts than when I first started and that lower doses are beginning to cause me to slip into ego death without expecting it. Ego death on a low dose can be a scary thing if you aren't expecting it.
Any thoughts? I haven't ingested any psychedelics in about 6 months now and could really go for a spin. I just don't know what to think of this whole ordeal.
Any help would be appreciated.
Thank you all for your time!
**TLDR; I used to trip all the time, but now even low doses cause me to become delusional and blacked out. I don't know why this is happening but have some guesses, mainly having to do with ego death.