A Place Like Bluelight...

I've grown quite a bit in the last 7 years. Much of which Bluelight has encouraged... The many people whom I have crossed paths with, I am very thankful for this. Extremely thankful, there are many who are so brilliant, fantastically amazing souls that I could only dream to meet as an equal.

I used to be heavy into the sci-psycho-neuro-bullshit on this site. I used to participate in all of the discussion. I really miss being a part of something so great.

I suppose I grew tired.

Like so many "good" friends in my life, bluelight has become such a distant memory. Or that everyone seems so distant. I feel distant too.

My life now is a billion times more wonderful than even one year ago.

There were many people on here that I looked up to for approval. I still do in many ways inside my own head.

But like the many drops of rain that drip into a gutter, and flow - shooting stagnant spray... they have disappeared.

I think to myself, what did i do? what did i say? why don't they like me?

---- for a minute.

Maybe this is why for so long, i stopped posting on bluelight... maybe?

so says maslow's laws. love & belonging...


anything...


I may write when I am bummed, sad, angry... maybe it is because when things are great i don't sit in front on my computer?


Well to whomever reads this; i miss you my friend, i only hold goodness in my heart for you and hope soon we cross paths again and sit on the sidelines passing time with rhythm and rhyme.

 

I love you, my bella .

 

Very profound. Its nice to be connected with others, in if its through a screen. I'm glad BL has been good for you in the end. Not everyone can say that...

 

I'd doubt that you know me, but I've always enjoyed reading your posts WV, and am so glad to hear that things are going so well for you! You'll always have a place here if you need it, but when Life beckons it is unwise not to heed the call.

Many happy days to you and yours, and if you only post here when you're feeling low then I hope to not see you again for a long while.

 

"maybe it is because when things are great i don't sit in front on my computer?"

Y'know, that's a theory worth subscribing to. Might explain why most of my entries look like they were written by an insecure teenage girl, hah!

I'm glad to see you're still around.