a picture *heart wrenching, may not wanna read*

[roliepolie]

You in my camera --
rodent-faced curled
like a last bean in an emptied sack
fist pressed to bloodless lips
still curly hair proud against hospital-white
brow intent focused on sleep
-- or fighting it

Why have I carried this camera?
Did I expect you to say "Moneeeeee"
freezing into your fullest grin
then laugh like you hadn’t done this
all those many happy Sundays of your girlhood?

Did I expect to see you? I see
that photo hung in your hall
that tiny child you
less than one month old

I try to focus on the differences
My smile your frown
my sprawl your curl
-- your yellow tubes

I almost believe
you don’t want to wake for me
That you demand yellow liquid
be dripped into your nose
Because you think it regal
Because you think it righteous
not to eat or wake

I bow and kiss your warm head
your skin like a cotton blanket
I say, "Please, hear me say good-bye."

Then once you stir
your disconnected eyes roll lazily in your head
and I fear you might crack open
might split suddenly and spill
-- nothing

"You are the only one who never left me,"
I tell you, though I think you might not hear
So I close over your tired ear
whispering, "Andrea, be brave and die."

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I watched my father die in much the same way, it shocked me to see him reduced to a body with pipes and that was all there was to life.

Touching words.
Respect.

 

[roliepolie]

yea, my best friend died a long while ago and I curled up in her bed and held her when they pulled the plug, and cried for her while she died... it was totally devastating... and kinda makes me want to cry thinking about it... I can't even read this poem to be honest because it brings back too many memories.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

One thing I find about writing is that often it gets the feelings out in terms of words - kind of like if I let the words out the burden goes with it. I hope for the same for you in this instance.

 

[roliepolie]

not really. I can't even read this piece

 

[harraser]

this is painfully beautiful. and too personal for me to say anything else

 

[E-girl]

i could swear i replied to this yesterday *scratches head*

beautifully done, hon. emotional and heartfelt. and that's why it was my nominee for this week

 

[up all night]

This is amazing.

Even more so because my best friend (whose name is coincidentally andrea) just had to say a similar goodbye to her friend and they're half a world away from me.

I'm so glad I read this tonight. I'm sending it to andge (and i wish you weren't an ex-bler so you'd know that 2 1/2 years later your words can touch someone)

 

[(Wordy)]

I'm lost for words. This is so incredibly beautiful and sad. Every word is perfect.