I've noticed I've been becoming less and less social, I have no idea when this began but its hard for me to hold a conversation without losing interest and just making the whole situation awkward.
Noticed this at a party on Friday, I didn't feel like talking to anyone really, except a close friend of mine and when I did approach a different group the above happened.
I wasn't always like this, let's hope its just a phase.
On another note my morning glory has bloomed its first few flowers, 2 have shrivelled already but its well on its way to 3 feet in height. The sweet peas have never stopped growing and the pansys should show some flowers soon, as for the miracle bean, I wish I could dispose of it but its still so very much alive and id hate to destroy something I grew just like that. Its really big, but the bastard aphids had destroyed much of it while it was still growing at the spectacular rate that it did.
School will start soon, the classes I need or want are full so I might have to bullshit this smester with only music or such just so I can save a good amount of financial aid for my traveling fund across america, into canada, and eventually take a plane to europe and travel on foot and train everywhere overthere. Seemingly enough it feels as if it'd be easier since I've lost so much contact with my 2 best friends, one involved so much with his girlfriend, don't get me wrong I'm happy for him, but since then we haven't much of him at all and when we do he doesn't want to do anything since he has become "low one money" and even tho we say we"ll spot em he says he'd rather not because he doesn't like using other peoples money, the thing is were inviting him to do it so yea, that's his excuse and I'm pretty sick of it. Anyway that makes it easier to say farewell to them.
I dream of moving the fuck out of america and into europe, no preferances as of now as I haven't had the chance to see or experience anything overthere, or canada.
Noticed this at a party on Friday, I didn't feel like talking to anyone really, except a close friend of mine and when I did approach a different group the above happened.
I wasn't always like this, let's hope its just a phase.
On another note my morning glory has bloomed its first few flowers, 2 have shrivelled already but its well on its way to 3 feet in height. The sweet peas have never stopped growing and the pansys should show some flowers soon, as for the miracle bean, I wish I could dispose of it but its still so very much alive and id hate to destroy something I grew just like that. Its really big, but the bastard aphids had destroyed much of it while it was still growing at the spectacular rate that it did.
School will start soon, the classes I need or want are full so I might have to bullshit this smester with only music or such just so I can save a good amount of financial aid for my traveling fund across america, into canada, and eventually take a plane to europe and travel on foot and train everywhere overthere. Seemingly enough it feels as if it'd be easier since I've lost so much contact with my 2 best friends, one involved so much with his girlfriend, don't get me wrong I'm happy for him, but since then we haven't much of him at all and when we do he doesn't want to do anything since he has become "low one money" and even tho we say we"ll spot em he says he'd rather not because he doesn't like using other peoples money, the thing is were inviting him to do it so yea, that's his excuse and I'm pretty sick of it. Anyway that makes it easier to say farewell to them.
I dream of moving the fuck out of america and into europe, no preferances as of now as I haven't had the chance to see or experience anything overthere, or canada.
