A non-productive individual

I realize it's self-defeating to think of how much money I would have right now had I accepted my job offer after undergrad and not gone on to grad school only to graduate with loads of debt (a year in Finland partying costs about as much as a 5 series), but I just can't help it.

Here I sit, utterly unemployed despite my best efforts. Okay, I admit I did have a job for a while after grad school but it was a fucking slave factory and because my boss's boss was a dick to him my boss was also a dick to me. So, probably becoming many people's secret hero, I walked into his office and said "I quit and fuck you." Once the awesomeness wore off, of course, I noticed that I wasn't making any money for several months and here I sit still.

Within the next couple of months I will be totally broke if I don't get a job, and it is not exactly very cool to ask grandma for $10,000 all the time when you're 25 years old - and in the meantime let her decorate your apartment and put groceries in it while inexplicably, my roommate, who I have sex with on a daily basis, pays both rent and electricity for both of us. To be fair, she has her own house she rents out which almost makes my existence as a bum acceptable on some level.

It's the sedentary nature of my existence that is driving me out of my mind right now. I go to as many job fairs as possible since I blew some stupid amount of money on a new office wardrobe. I have even covered the clothing and electronics stores at the mall with my applications. There are a few companies that have put me through a few interviews but no word yet.

It is starting to really get me down. I had to sell all of my stock Friday just to be sure that I definitely had enough money to meet my debt payments if I don't get hired by someone soon, and of course I can look forward to receiving a bill from the IRS next year for not reporting that 60% gain in the first four months of this year (yes, I can be awesome sometimes).

If it weren't for my psychiatrist keeping me fairly sedated, I probably would have had a heart attack by now.
 
geez, chill bro. you'll find a job. it takes a bit of time. and psych meds probably dont help, even though you might think so at the time...
 
My ex has been living on his parents dole for quite some time now. He makes six figures and lives with his parents again.

He is 42 years old.

Chin up buddy. There is always someone less fortunate than you out there.

You have your life and your health. Nothing else really matters.

:)
 
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