So if any of you guys have read any of my old journal entries you'll see that i did try to quit dope. I was in such a miserable placethat i honestly thought i was all better right away.
I relapsed so many times. I did indeed relapse after my last journal entry. I figured Ishould start keeping a new online journal on this blog. It'll prob help me, and could posssibly help another addict.
Right now I am seven months clean. It's a freakin miracle. I relapsed so bad this last time after I started going to N.A. that i ended up suicidal in the hospitals's psych ward. I had a psychotic episode bought on by wihdrawels that led the staff and security to throw me into seclusion, then chain me to the bed in four-point restraints.
Now I am on suboxone. Not a lot of people agree on it but it helps me and it actually keeps me clean. This recovery stuff is not easy. Yea keeping it simple is an easy concept, but living an honest program takes a lot of honesty,openmindedness, and willingness.
It'd be a good idea for me to try to log on to this journal more often and share my experiences, strengths, an hope.
For now I will go,but one last note that I have to say is: if you're a junkie, read "the herion diaries" by Nikki Sixx, the bassist from Motley Crue. You will not believe how much the average person can relate with a rockstar, simply because we are all addicts.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I relapsed so many times. I did indeed relapse after my last journal entry. I figured Ishould start keeping a new online journal on this blog. It'll prob help me, and could posssibly help another addict.
Right now I am seven months clean. It's a freakin miracle. I relapsed so bad this last time after I started going to N.A. that i ended up suicidal in the hospitals's psych ward. I had a psychotic episode bought on by wihdrawels that led the staff and security to throw me into seclusion, then chain me to the bed in four-point restraints.
Now I am on suboxone. Not a lot of people agree on it but it helps me and it actually keeps me clean. This recovery stuff is not easy. Yea keeping it simple is an easy concept, but living an honest program takes a lot of honesty,openmindedness, and willingness.
It'd be a good idea for me to try to log on to this journal more often and share my experiences, strengths, an hope.
For now I will go,but one last note that I have to say is: if you're a junkie, read "the herion diaries" by Nikki Sixx, the bassist from Motley Crue. You will not believe how much the average person can relate with a rockstar, simply because we are all addicts.