A little venting..

DaveTripper

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I've been dealing with some terrible anxiety/depression for almost a year now, and things don't seem to be getting better. I just feel so damn weird and nervous all the time; my friends hardly have a clue about what I'm going through, and I feel reluctant to talk to them about it because I'm afraid they'll think I've completely lost it...

Lately it's been such a struggle to get through every single day without the aid of a benzo or opiate to numb my anxiety.. I'll wake up, dread going to work, be miserable for the entire day, get out of work, and be too scared to even call my friends and hang out with them.. it's complete shit.

On top of this, I feel like I've lost touch with the person I used to be.. I have no idea who I am anymore and what used to make me happy, what I used to find funny, and what I used to be like in general..

I haven't seen a doctor about this yet because conveniently my health insurance ran out at about the same time this started happening.. I should be getting back on some type of insurance soon though and as soon as this happens I'm heading straight to the psychiatrist.

Thanks for listening, I just had to put this out there somewhere.

-Dave
 
i know exactly what your feeling, and i went to a psychiatrist. he put me on lexapro, and its not helping. ive been taking it for almost 2 weeks now but i dont see any positive changes. i actually walked out of my job today because of my anxiety issues, lost a good job. i just coulnt take it anymore. ive also stopped my heavy opiate/benzo use just a couple months ago (due to legal issues, i had to), and i still have intense cravings. im hoping i can snap out of this soon, too.
 
there are so many times that i wish i could just walk out of my job, but unfortunately i work for my dad so that would just cause more problems than it's worth.. but yeah i'm probably gonna go see a psych he's gonna give me that same lexapro bullshit that he gave you and send me on my way.. idk, this shit fucking sucks
 
Hey, sorry to hear about how you are feeling. Have you tried a psychologist or counselor for psychotherapy rather than medication? I've found it to be very helpful in dealing with anxiety, I go every week and it has been a huge help.

The two other things that have helped tremendously are meditation and exercise. It sounds simple but it's amazing how much they can help. Less stress, more energy, increased self-esteem, the list of benefits goes on. And unlike drugs, the more you do it the more benefits you get.
 
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