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A life ruined

CalicoCatLover

CalicoCatLover

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Anyone here ever know that you had a piece of shit life and it will never get better? Everyone always treated me like shit. Nothing nice or lucky ever happened. Its been a complete waste of animal birth.

The only nice thing that happened was meeting animals and I was too poor to have my own as an adult. I had to live in a squat with my cat and we both suffered so gravely at the hands of my boyfriend.

I hope I die thinking of animals. Nothing else was ever worth a goddamn thing to me.
 
I look at people and I see evil in them whatever hell I face, they pass me by. The worst thing that could happen, does. I wish I could explode the planet and give it back to the animals

Bitch, do you think I am laughing at veganism. You lowlife white trash fodder. Eat your meat, bitch. I laugh at you.
 
Yeah, one day

One day I will look into the eyes of an animal who feels pain and tell it it is my food

Because I'm a good punisher
 
One of my best memories, my cat syd ate these pumpkin muffins with me. One time I cooked him a whole turkey but it's like he was telling me he didn't care about meat.

My God...bobo...he ate a fucking grape
 
I used to make plastic bracelets from Walmart or something, all different kinds and put them on my cats and take photos. Candy I think people call it at a rave. I didn't know I was 13. Booboo died in front of my ugly face, I was too high on Benadryl to be a proper cat mom
 
Don't worry my mom took him to the vet

I got a cat I named bella when I was 18 to work at target I don't think I made enough but mom could have paid, instead I stole and they killed me
 

o Ya Wanna Be a Cop? Lyrics​

[Intro: Gandhi Samples]
[British Official] "I don't care if we fill the jails
Arrest anyone, anyone you can!"

[Gandhi] "We will make them see their injustice
And it will hurt, as all fighting hurts
But we cannot lose, we cannot
They may torture my body
Break my bones, even kill me
Then they will have my dead body
Not my obedience"
("I don't care if we fill the jails, fill the jails")
"Let us take a solemn oath that
Come what may, we will not submit to this law
We, we, we will not submit to this law"



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Julia Wolf “Deep End” (Live Performance) | Open Mic

One, two!

[Verse 1: Stza]
So, you wanna be a cop?
So, you wanna be on the top
Harassin' and shootin' all the kids on the block
Incarcerate the youth of the next generation
And you'll get the high-fives at the police station

[Ezra]
So, you wanna wear blue and prey on the people
Go above the Constitution where all men are so equal
Beat down the poor and the working-class core
You're a class-trading, motherfucking rich man's whore

[Stza]
'Cause it's a thin blue line
Between the love and the hate
And if you so choose to cross it
You're a Nazi for the state
Your injustice will crush us
The precious, the few
So, you wanna be a killer
For the red, white, and blue?

[Pre-Chorus 1: Ezra]
You're a bitch to the crown
Keep your own people down
You've got nothing to protect
But you're keeping the sect
For your own damn brothers
You've got no respect
And the killing won't stop
When you become a cop
 
I lived to eat and sleep every day as he went off to work to hold up a can of food with a working muscle

Get rid of evil fat as good as I can until he

Murdered me did worse than that, living every miserable day just to eat a bullet as your jesus on the cross

You tell me to kill myself my drink my rob my life
 
I really like Irvine Welsh and I had a lot of Kurt cobain books and andy warhol books, augusten burroughs, john Irving, sylvia plath, david sedaris, William s burroughs and William s burroughs jr., janet fitch, jeffrey eugenides, scott heim
 
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I slowly lost all real employment, my boyfriend wouldn't work. I didn't even know it's because he didn't have a car. I let him steal my car until it was gone. My mom said the cops put it up for auction. There were poppy pod pieces scattered along the floor of it. I was raped and impregnated following him around the bars with his bullshit alcoholism. I sat in my apartment getting evicted alone over the cost of an abortion. I can't even wait to get a haircut. My hair is expensive. I'm becoming ugly. I was trying to clean for a living which left me disabled in pain.
 
All the black widows watching say it's because I'm ugly when he was TRRRRRRRRASH. You don't have to do that to the ugly. Willy fuckin wonka. Acting crippled and shit. GROSS. I don't care how you LOOK bitch, you have no feelings lol
 
puke said:
Does this person ur talking about post here?
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Last time I heard he was called Patrick Batman on a video game forum. He thought it was funny to kill the homeless I suppose, seeing as I was homeless and he killed me. He gave me to this government agent who had me disfigured so everyone could pretend it always was
 
I used to be 112 pounds, the government doesn't let me shit now, you put two and two together. Torturing a victim of rape.
 
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