a lie.

[rewiiired]

I put on another mask
to combat my compulsions.
Here the truth reveals my weakness
and a lie can preserve my pride.

Nervous tension rises in me.
I can't take another degree,
for I'm drowning in intensity.
Nothing's in between for me.

In my mind I try and look away,
focus on something else; anything:
feeble attempts to keep chaos at bay.
Looks like the hurricane's here to stay,

so I put on another mask
to combat my compulsions.
Here the truth reveals my weakness
and a lie can preserve my pride.

It seems the answer's so clear to me
until it comes to be I truly need that clairty.
Everything rational walks right out the door,
leaving me here needing, bitter and sore

I convince myself... but I know I'm bluffing.
I can already see the inevitable eruption,
but I keep holding it in, it keeps on growing.
The longer I wait, the bigger the explosion,

but still I put on another mask
to combat my compulsions.
Here the truth reveals my weakness
and a lie can preserve my pride,
but it cannot save me from
my other side.

 

[beanpoophead]

i really like this

i know what its like to hide. unfortunately for many people (me included...) hiding only leads to further problems. somteimes i wish i could put on a mask and make it all go away.

 

[jeebus13]

Intense. Sounds like someoneI have been recently. Isn't it funny how sometimes it doesn't even take a straw to break the camel's back. Just let it stand there long enough and it will fall to pieces... sometimes nothing is the heaviest burden to bear.