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hlin818

hlin818

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I've been lurking on these forums for a while now but out of some type of irrational paranoia of authority figures I never registered. But here I am!

A little about me: I'm 23, from southern California. I got introduced to drugs relatively late in life, only about three years ago. MDMA was the first drug I ever tried, and well, I think the fact that I'm posting on these forums speaks volumes about what it did for me. Eventually the neurotoxicity issues made me reconsider MDMA; I've only rolled about three times in my life and I feel very satisfied with its effects. I dabbled in opiates for a bit, and now I'm very into psychedelics, where I think I'll stay for a long, long time.
 
new to BL myself. SoCal based, too. Figured I'd intro myself. Acid was the first for me. Big deadhead for a while...weed, then coke, a lot in the 90s in NYC....didn't discover Mollies until later in life (roughly late 20s) while out here on the Left Coast. Anyway....still enjoying the weed and occasional rolling. Healthy appetite for Norcos as well. Klonopins, ativan, and sleeping pills. I have issues, I know, but this forum appears to be a place for honesty.
 
DopeySmurf said:
new to BL myself. SoCal based, too. Figured I'd intro myself. Acid was the first for me. Big deadhead for a while...weed, then coke, a lot in the 90s in NYC....didn't discover Mollies until later in life (roughly late 20s) while out here on the Left Coast. Anyway....still enjoying the weed and occasional rolling. Healthy appetite for Norcos as well. Klonopins, ativan, and sleeping pills. I have issues, I know, but this forum appears to be a place for honesty.
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I agree. Thats more or less why I joined too, along with the wealth of information here.


BookWormBrunette said:
i beg to differ....
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Ok fine...maybe it is =D


theotherside26 said:
Welcome to Bluelight.........Socal seems like the place to be in 2010! Tons of Bluelighters call socal home :)
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Thanks! Yeah, there do seem to be a lot of bluelighters from socal. Its probably because of the massive over commercialized rave scene here...rolls are everywhere.

In many ways I'm almost glad I wasn't introduced to drugs earlier. Had I discovered MDMA earlier I'm pretty sure I never would have never done anything with my life. Even when I was rolling a few times a year I found myself just counting down the days until the next roll...
 
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hlin818 said:
Thanks everyone!

Yeah, there do seem to be a lot of bluelighters from socal. Its probably because of the massive over commercialized rave scene here...rolls are everywhere.

In many ways I'm almost glad I wasn't introduced to drugs earlier. Had I discovered MDMA earlier I'm pretty sure I never would have never done anything with my life. Even when I was rolling a few times a year I found myself just counting down the days until the next roll...
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hahaha, don't feel so bad.

There's a lot worse things to live through than going through a bit of MDMA. Trust me. ;)
 
Captain.Heroin said:
hahaha, don't feel so bad.

There's a lot worse things to live through than going through a bit of MDMA. Trust me. ;)
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I just finished reading your story and I found it very inspiring and a very worthy read. The profound experiences psychedelics can give individuals glimpses of are the reason why I am so interested in them.

Not that my short , limited experience with heroin compares in ANY way to your epic ordeal, but I tried heroin once and the psychological addiction was so overwhelming that I swore to myself I would not do it again under any circumstances. I did not, and never will. Shortly after that one experience I slowly forgot about how incredible it felt and the details of the experience left my consciousness. Obviously (and thankfully) physical addiction had not yet occurred; when psychological and physical addiction go together I'd imagine it is unbearable. Heroin for me was a drug that gave me an escape from life itself. That sort of experience I found too much and for me a bit purposeless - my life was never so bad that I needed to forget it.

MDMA....was just way too much fun. In a way the euphoria and empathogenic effects were the most addictive of all. I felt so grounded in my life during MDMA experiences that I literally could not stop thinking about how better my life would if I was constantly rolling (stupid but undeniable. I doubt there's a roller alive who hasn't thought this :)). The fact that I felt so myself during rolls was very seductive.

Psychedelics on the other hand, gave me a greater affinity for life, and I can't see any reason other than the fact that they are not instantly enjoyable that one would not want to experience what they have to offer. Despite this I'm still a materialist die-hard and an avowed atheist...which I can't see changing, but you never know I suppose.
 
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