A goodbye to heroin

[Pagey]

The waves of a life without meaning ripple through the surface.
They crack through the coating and drown out the light.
They take away the goal, they take away the hope.
They take away the pride and the love and the life.

Twisted fantasies of suicidal ideation become
The reason to go on.
A raison d'être and something to look forward to
And a reason to keep the water out of your mouth.

Perverse dreams of too many pills swallowed
Or a last blissful shot, maybe?
Surely a good way to go out.
A last valiant fuck you to the world as I drown.

Let the waves take over the sucking void
And the hole that endlessly expands
And consumes everything in sight.
The waves will take care of it.

One last shot? To commemorate.
To remember the good times, right?
The good times, spent lying under my covers
Ignoring phone calls. Except maybe the one.

Lying to friends until there aren't any left
Ignoring opportunity after opportunity
Until they don't come any more.
But they'll come after that last shot.

The good times and only memories I've got.

Fuck you, lady H.

 

[infectedmushroom]

Nice!

 

[Ashley]

VERY Nice!

A.

 

[monstanoodle]

That's fucking brilliant Pagey and everyone who knows of the toil and hurt knows will relate to every single word - I do

 

[Pagey]

That's fucking brilliant Pagey and everyone who knows of the toil and hurt knows will relate to every single word - I do

Stay strong monsta. You know we're all better than the heroin.

 

[F.U.B.A.R.]

Stay strong monsta. You know we're all better than the heroin.

Ya know, I really wish I could believe that... but at the moment I'm thinking that heroin is better than all of us...

Lovely poem by the way, so, so true - but Christ I would love a bag now

Sitting here unable to sleep cos I did all my methadone a day early (yes, I know I've got nobody to blame but myself), trying to drink myself into a stupor and quiet the cravings..

Sometimes I just think 'fuck it, why not just give in and succumb to the one true God that is morphine', instead of constantly fighting. It makes you so weary......

 

[thujone]

mmm sucking void. "But they'll come after the last shot" is a bone-chiller

 

[Pagey]

Ya know, I really wish I could believe that... but at the moment I'm thinking that heroin is better than all of us...

Lovely poem by the way, so, so true - but Christ I would love a bag now

Sitting here unable to sleep cos I did all my methadone a day early (yes, I know I've got nobody to blame but myself), trying to drink myself into a stupor and quiet the cravings..

Sometimes I just think 'fuck it, why not just give in and succumb to the one true God that is morphine', instead of constantly fighting. It makes you so weary......

Hey F.U.B.A.R, hope you're doing a bit better now

mmm sucking void. "But they'll come after the last shot" is a bone-chiller

Thanks

 

[Ashley]

I have been re-reading this over and over again, since you first posted it, and every time it continues to touch me. It is just so well written, simply a great piece of writing.

I hope you've been well Pagey.

A.