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A Boner in My Mind.

rewiiired

Bluelighter
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Another day, life seems
to take another dump on me.
I'm sad, I'm pissed off, I'm scared and I'm tired:
it's the same old shit piling up even higher.

One more push and off it goes.
Just a bit more weight and I'm going to blow.
Test me again and I'm going to fuck you up.
Just skin and bones, shock value and adreniline,
and no pause for dramatic effect:
you'd never see it coming, fuckers,
you'd never see it coming.

Just stay away today.
Just shut your fucking mouths.
Just leave me the hell alone.
Let me cool off.
Let me cool off.

Biting back a sharp toungue.
Trying to hide my white knuckles.
Whip the scream that's rising like lava
from the base of my blackened throat.

Down here,
trapped in this again,
I feel that yearning for liberation,
get a taste of all that's been hiding.
So many things inside I've denied.
All along I thought I was chasing my shadows,
but it turns out I was running from them, trying to
live up to dead ideals and
cardboard cut-out heros.

Let me see the light.
Do you have a light?
And can you spare a can of gasoline?
I'm so thirsty, so hungry,
so unbearably horny to
see this all go up in flames.
The thought gives a
boner to my mind.

I'm just not honest anymore,
calculating my every move,
trying to manipulate every situation,
usually at the cost of being manipulated.
Even my own mask, my own act,
has become a pawn in my wicked game
of delusion and betrayal.

Is the story over?
Are we there yet?
Can the credits roll already?
Because I'm so fucking sick
of all this bullshit.

Another day, life seems
to take another dump on me.
I'm depressed, I'm furious, I'm drained and terrified.
It's the same old shit piling up even higher.
My kingdom of petrified feces for a flush.

One more push and off it goes.
Just a bit more weight and I'm going to blow.

I'm so thirsty, so hungry,
so unbearably horny to
see this all go up in flames.
The thought brings a
boner to my mind
It gives a boner
to my mind.

Where did I go?
Why can't the other part of me --
the bigger parts of me --
running after me,
just behind me --
just catch up with me,
kill my dreams,
show me reality,
let me be me?
 
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