9months in recovery, Show me the door.

Get me out of this place, I've had some great times living in a dual diagnosis facility for mental health and addiction, pretty tolerant here, just breathalised and supervised piss test twice a week, only had one slip with drink and one slip with a binge on drink, heroin, diaz and cannabis. Got a flat sorted out and i move in two days, so much looking forward to laying in my bed with a big fat spliff and shooting some smack, generally going off the rails for a few day!

I've learnt a lot been here, mainly, if you want a stable life you gotta work at it, I've had some grim time but some great laughs and good times overall. been a great chapter to my life.

But im sure fire no turning back, i've got my mind set on using and theres nothing going to stop me, i'm gonna push the barrell pay the price, it gonna be nice. No doubt I'll wake up in a hole of grim headspace but its nothing fucking new to me. Im just so fucking ansty about getting out of here its unreal.

TaylorC the addict is back for more!

 

If you don't mind my asking: if you've put that much work into rehab, why would you go and relapse right away? Was this an involuntary rehab?

 

No problem matey! It's not really rehab, its supported accomodation, It's volountary and i had to work hard providing clean for months to get in. I wanted away from my parent house and too see how i fend on my own, tryed that, now I'm back on my merry way, Bring it on!

 

it seems silly to throw away all your hard work.

please try to talk to someone before losing 9 months of work.

 

It is, part of me will miss this place, I can and still will come back here as I've built support networks worth keeping.

I've spoke to tons of people, none can change my path or will

 

Be careful out there man remember that your tolerance will be real low so take that into account when you shoot up.

 

I've got to say I feel your pain,the only way to manage is keep blue devil on a chain,you have to find a vise an appetite suppressor I know a lot of healthy ways to taper off andmanage.

But what the fuck am I sayin I'm like the rest shell never give me rest