98% pure Carbon Monoxide & 5mg of Alprazolam

[Jekyll and Hyde]

I'm not sure if any of the earlier posters mentioned this, but if you're feeling that way, I advise you to go to the ER and spend some time on the psych ward. It will give you the time to really evaluate your situation. I personally was feeling the same way you were about a week ago and I mentioned this to my clinician at the day hospital I was attended and she sectioned me. I know psych wards have their own stigma, but in reality, they can really help you acutely and evaluate your situation. They may recommend a change of meds and the daily groups help one to understand their illness, their warning signs, and ways to cope with one's problems. Over the span of time I spent in the hospital it gave me time to realize a lot of our problems are our biased perspectives. Even though you feel shitty right now, remember I'm sure there were days where you were happy. I hope you don't act out on impulse and really evaluate your situation, and you either contact your therapist and psychiatrist, or like I mentioned go to the ER if you start getting that urge to hurt yourself. I hope you make the right decision, and give yourself a chance, because if you end your life you don't have the time to realize how important it is to have the will to live. I had two prior attempts on my life in the past 7 months, and I finally realized that I needed to check myself in before I made any brash decisions. I'm going to reiterate myself because I feel its important to give yourself the time to evaluate your situation and give yourself a chance.

 

[w33dsp34k]

RIP the man that never was
im afraid he (or could be a she/both?) really did it, or was just being an attention whore?
i mean he never replied to any of us did he?

 

[littlechino]

I know you said no suicide lectures, but I believe that anyone is obliged to try.

I'm going to repeat what others have said about suicide being extremely selfish. You will cause much more anguish for those in your life than what you are probably experiencing. There is always hope. If your emotional pain is really that deep, than it shouldn't matter what pain you suffer as you leave this world.

Financial loss? I currently am over $75,000 in debt from student loans with no degree, significant work experience or qualifications; I am currently unemployed. Two of my three loans are extremely overdue.

I am a heroin addict; every cent of unearned money that comes into my possession goes toward heroin. I have burned bridges with the most important people in my life but continue to use and deceive the only person that has stood by my side. I, too, have considered suicide but thought better of it.

What am I doing now? I've enlisted in the army. That will put me on military deferral for my loans. They will pay off $20,000 of my loans. After my training, I will have the means to return to school and get my life back on track.

Yes, I still frequently feel hopeless with despair. I still consider just quitting life at times. Yet I am always reminded about how my actions would affect those around me. Even though I am not even on speaking terms with my parents, I recognize how much anguish I would cause them.

To answer your question: no, it sounds like a fucking horrible plan.

 

[Mercury (Hg)]

I dont know if this is agients the rules or not, Frankly I'll be honest i did not read the rules because im very high right now and just want advice. I have chosen to end my life within hopefully the next day or two. I have aquired a large tank of 98% pure co (carbon monoxide) a mask, tubing, and 5mg of Alprazolam (Xanax). I plan on taking the 5mg of xanax, smoking a cig, putting on the mask (in a deserted area) so no one but myself will be injured by its toxic gas and waiting the 5 to ten minute for unctuousness then death in 15-40 minutes. Is this a fairly painless way to go? Please dont lecure me, I'm 26, i know what im doing. I'm not mentally disturbed and im not a child seeking attention. This is what i want, due to SIGNIFICANT financial loss and my brother passing away months ago in a fatal car accident, there is truely...nothing i want more then death. I just want opinions....Should i take more Xanax or is 5mg enough to relax me enough to do the deed so to speak. I have taken 2mg and i was asleep within an hour if that. So i think if i take 5mg, smoke a quick cig, then put on the mask and fall asleep the gas will kill me quite quickly without any pain or recollection of the events. The tank is just large enough to run for aprox. 1.5 hours so obviously there will be no one to turn it off, so i figured that size tank is the safest bet. My plan is to either do this in my shed (i live alone) and post notices on the shed and the house to call the police and not to enter the shed (because im certain my ex girlfriend will check on me when i dont answer her calls within a day or two) I dont want to hurt ANYONE physically, just myself. Does this sound like a good plan i have come up with? Once again, Please not suicide lectures or the suicide hotline number.

Given the inherent value of money (none), there is no such thing as a significant financial loss.

Don't end your life so needlessly. Grief will pass.

 

[fm1983]

It's been 5 days or so since his post. I hope to "god" he didnt go through with this. I agree with the fact that he posted on here, was indeed a cry for help. No words we can write on here can help him. He has to have some sort of family or close friends that can help him through this tough time.

I don't even know what to say to this post...I hope we hear from him again.

* I searched google news for "carbon monoxide + suicide" with no recent results, let's hope thats a good sign...*