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...and what it does to people in the short and the long term.

It is an insidious substance, state of mind, and lifestyle choice become an epidemic of herculean proportions. The great ripples of negativity its abuse leaves across all of civil society leaves me with a heavy heart and soul.

To everyone I have ever known and loved who was and might still be using it to the point of self-annihilation: I wish you the best. But I must now leave, because trying to love you is entirely too hard on me.

Not being able to scale the walls you've built around your body and soul leaves me no choice but to turn away. I need to be able to fight the good fight another day.

 

Thanks.



I feel more sorry for people who have been through it and have yet to evolve into more present and positive beings.

I know I've been through a lot and made it out alive. I am a stronger person for that today.

...course I can sympathize with those still deep down in it. I just keep forgetting there is nothing I can do for the still deeply troubled.

I've yet to decide if there are personality types that gravitate towards it as a particular drug of choice, or the end result of their long run on the stuff leaves them that type--sometimes for life.



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Man, Sorry to hear you have to make that choice......but sometimes it really is best to cut your losses.......as cold as that sounds and as cold as you might feel for doing it. (At least I struggled with that)

You gotta do what is healthy for you

 

Oh? What do you think the percentage of healthy long-time users is?

I know people in their 50's that were speed heads for 30 plus years.

No one gets out untouched in my opinion.

 

^I'd agree. And usually when you are really fucked up, you don't realize it :D
I always thought I was pretty normal and had shit under control

 

Right?

I used to have some pictures from my short run of about a year.

...not a pretty sight. They were prints that I destroyed when I found them, because they really disgusted me. I don't want to remember myself like that.




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