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So Im very sad today. I somehow managed to miss almost an entire shot in my wrist. It hurt but since it usually stings quite a bit when I use my wrist I thought little of it and just made sure to flag a few times. Heres where I get confused. Every time I flagged I got a steady flow of blood and was totally confident that I was in. I realize that there are other factors that obviously must have played into the mishap but I usually dont have these problems so Im still a little sore about it (literally and figuratively). Too add insult to injury, the reason Ive been using my wrist (the left one) for the past couple of days is because Id ALREADY missed a small amount with a previous shot in my neck. Now, Im not a rookie and even back in the day I was uncannily good at finding veins and administering my shots in a pretty efficient way so this string of misfortunes is unnerving to say the least and makes me feel, to put it quite simply, bad. Since I missed a portion of the shot in the left side of my neck (a hurried situation where I was in a friends non-ignorant parents bathroom. Needed to be quick, clean and quiet and had already taken more time than I shouldve so pushed the plunger a little faster/harder than my vein could handle, mustve slipped out a bit at the end and was just too late to save it) Ive been using my wrist. For some reason the entire right side of my body has less reliable veins and even though the right side of my neck tends to yield a pretty decent and trusty vein its been on the fritz for the last couple days DESPITE my not having used it in well over a week. Grrr. Soooo Ive been hitting my left wrist, an absolute last resort that I was not even expecting to come to my rescue. But now the party is over and I dont even know what Im looking at. Havent tried to hit since I fucked my wrist all up and frankly I dont even know where Ill start. To make matters worse I have no clean rigs and although a trip to the exchange is in store for me tomorrow theres not too much I can do about it tonight Needless to say I dont have the resources to go raping myself with needles for five hours just to get a bedtime shot. Just a sad sad day, needed a rant.