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When I was little I seemed so big
I was the center of the universe
everything was so new and interesting
Then I slowly grew up and realized my littleness
How small I am compared to everything else
So insignificant the way I am
and I wonder if I should even exist
things used to be so simple and I felt free
I felt hope that it will all be alright
Now I'm slowly losing hope, losing myself
in my own insignicance
I'm trying so hard to fight for myself
to get back to the days where I felt hope
where things seemed good
I hope there will be better days
I;m trying to be patient and think of the better days
I know they will come but now it all seems so dark
I feel like a prisoner in my own head
Where did my hope go and when will it come back
I used to be so strong and fought so hard
Now I;m just a shadow of what I used to be
Don't know who I am any more
but just know that who I am is not good enough
I'm too weak to fight anymore but I don't want to give up
I hate my dark days, they are so deeply painful
tears just come on their own and don't stop
I'm just waiting but not sure for what