Yeah I posted in that thread in words about my multiple losses and how I finally came around to "happy" even though I beg to differ about the terminology I'm just accepting the absurdity of life, temporarily.
That is not entirely true as your first statement was a gentle recommendation to fall into a habit that is historically and neurochemically impossible for myself without the assistance of a tankbusting sleeping aid/benzo.
You calling me dumb for being a slave to addiction? Seems a bit oxymoronic. Choice of words
Experience? Other than the symptoms ive mentioned, I have not had any other issues. Of course there are long-term implications of those bouts. It honestly takes effort to sleep at that point, my body and mind just want to keep going regardless of any convictions I have about the matter.
Fair enough... people like you must be superhuman or something
I always wanted to be superhuman, but the reality is that im an addict. I have very little self-control or inhibitions while high. Its been a fucking roller coaster man.
Thats why I take opiates atleast the more you take the happier you are until you just nod out last night I literaly went to smoke my last line about 7 times before realising i kept nodding out and fogetting so made a big effort to keep my eyes awake and take that last line the closest I come to a bender is a few cups of coffee in the morning and then some nice codeine or smack to comedown
I have a longer history with opiates than I do with amps, even using them in the past as speedballs. Right now I supplement with Kratom. I agree with you though, the ol’ days of Roxicodone, crushing up Morphine, diluting and plugging, banging heroin, eating hydrocodones/percocets/darvocets/codeine/etc like candy were fun. Opiates are crippling on another plane though, I can cold-turkey amps without blinking an eye, maybe have some rebound depression, nothing I havent lived with since the age of 13. Opiates though, its a nightmarish danse macabre I try to avoid...but frequently revisit out of nostalgia.
Only 3 hours to go until I can pick up 3 bags this time im gonna just do half of one bag and try to not take anymore you should try playing world of warcraft while out of it and annoying the shit out of your dunegon team mates because the tank keeps going afk due to 'going shop' or 'making food'
Haha, I play Path of Exile and many other games. Is that an invite?
Of course, I know the feeling all too well. Its potentiated by using drugs in tandem. When I first played Path of Exile (which is free btw, I just spend money on the stash tabs which help if youre play extensively).
Yes but what im saying is i didnt take drugs then because I was a kid but the feeling it created I would describe as heroin or opiates just like ps1 games did my dad said that they use patterns flashing to fast for you to see that hypnotise you and make the game and everything look better and more vibrant than it really is I have a real soft spot for old games
Im agreeing with you, I grew up in the 80s. I remember Chisolm Trail and the old 3.5 inch floppy games. I still have all of my original consoles and old PC games. I know what youre talking about as I was not on drugs as a five year old.
I now focus on VR gaming.
I have never played WoW, unlikely to start.