thats right, its been 70 days since my last OD. I havent touched or seen dope since. I thought about it maybe once or twice at most but have no urge or drive to use. I keep hearing from people I am on the "pink cloud" and it will soon end. Well, who knows.. but what I do know is I've been down this road before and never have I felt this confident and good about what I am doing/seeing. The Subox is helping greatly but even that I would like to taper soon. I am prescribed 16MG's a day still but there are days I'll take 8MG when I wake up at whatever time I wake up that day and end up falling asleep w/o taking another Subox that day. Sure, the next day I wake up and I don't feel GREAT but the 8MG itself got me through the day and still wake up w/ no urge; I just take another Subox at that time and all is good again.
Life has been different over the past 70 days. I moved out of my old apartment, left my GF, changed my job, have MONEY FINALLY, people are asking me to do things they were NOT asking before, I am being trusted by my family (although.. and YES it bothers me still.. there are time at night ill fall asleep on the couch and they question if I was nodding off?!?!) -- that PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF! my bad for falling asleep. and yet they ask if it was a nod? hey, whatever, tho. I am always down to take a piss test. plus, I take a piss test every couple weeks anyway cuz of the Subox doc, so I am fine w/ whatever.
I'll admit, tho.. I do smoke WEED still. Weed helps me sleep, eat, puts me at ease, anxiety, etc. Weed is helping more than xanax and valium did in the past. I also have a brain tumor and supposedly I can get scripted the weed once more stores start to open here in MA.
Anyway, I am working from home today and figured I'd write a quick blog in the meantime.
Bye folks! STAY CLEAN.. SAFE.. and HAPPY!
Life has been different over the past 70 days. I moved out of my old apartment, left my GF, changed my job, have MONEY FINALLY, people are asking me to do things they were NOT asking before, I am being trusted by my family (although.. and YES it bothers me still.. there are time at night ill fall asleep on the couch and they question if I was nodding off?!?!) -- that PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF! my bad for falling asleep. and yet they ask if it was a nod? hey, whatever, tho. I am always down to take a piss test. plus, I take a piss test every couple weeks anyway cuz of the Subox doc, so I am fine w/ whatever.
I'll admit, tho.. I do smoke WEED still. Weed helps me sleep, eat, puts me at ease, anxiety, etc. Weed is helping more than xanax and valium did in the past. I also have a brain tumor and supposedly I can get scripted the weed once more stores start to open here in MA.
Anyway, I am working from home today and figured I'd write a quick blog in the meantime.
Bye folks! STAY CLEAN.. SAFE.. and HAPPY!
