7 Helleven

Just finished another day at work, today was supposed to be my day off. Also, anotification went off on my phine this evening, reminding me that my first day of abstinence from crystal meth starts tomorrow and will last for 30 days. If after that 30 days I still want to use, after just barely getting though the withdrawals and severe depression and beginning to feel like an actual honest, productive individual who is beneficial to society, then I may... but I pray that God gives me the strength to refuse any offer given to me in the form of dope. I still havent been able to set a doctors appointment to see someone about getting my UTI cleared up... if that is what is causing me to feel like I have to pee every day, all day.