Tryptamines 6g Natal Super Strength shrooms with 4mg Xanax

[Littana]

Yeah so shit ended up real bad. I took a bunch of Xanax and blacked out. Consumed the entire gram of mdma drank all the shroom powder and took the 300ug acid tab all at once I just remembered reality completely breaking down I became god and existence just became one massive sensory experience looping over eternally. Apparently i was convulsing and screaming police found me lying on broken glass in a puddle of blood in the middle of the street had to be hospitalized. Wrecked my apartment and also broke my computer monitor. Hands/arms are badly cut and right leg is broken. Got evicted gonna find a new place to stay soon and move my shit. Job hasnt found out the reason for my hospitalization so I am in the clear for now. This'll probably be my last post for a while. Not messing around with drugs again they didn't lead me anywhere I wanted to be

damn i saw this coming from afar.... stop taking benzos or its really gonna be the last thing u do.... also prone to psychosis and doing shitload of mdma AND psyches... its gonna end in mental hospital or jail, Sadly ive seen this happen IRL way too many times :/

 

[pupnik]

when I saw the photo of the stash, I thought that the only thing I would want right away is the lsd, - each 300 ug tab would be 6 good sessions if it were accurately dosed, so that would be ~ 2 weeks of fun per tab, then I would reorder and start picking away at the MDMA... lastly the shrooms, and keep the xanax for sharing when other people were too agitated.

I don't do heavy dosing but I love lsd.

 

[chris_p]

damn i saw this coming from afar.... stop taking benzos or its really gonna be the last thing u do.... also prone to psychosis and doing shitload of mdma AND psyches... its gonna end in mental hospital or jail, Sadly ive seen this happen IRL way too many times :/

I admit I am the guy that pesters people to update their threads. However I usually like good news and wisdom and learning. This tale contains the learning, and the wisdom based off of the conclusion.

Keep yourself well Chris, if you enter the notion of using psychedelics as tools go very very low, even 1 gf of mushrooms and skip the xanax. But have a little more faith in yourself and don't fear what happened. Every experience makes us wiser.

The whole thread lead up to its cautionary conclusion. But i am glad you are basically still kicking Chris. Take care of your health. For now it sounds like abstinence from all substances is a must. Clean up the split milk but remain wise. You are miles ahead of the next guy that will make the same mistake. Stay well.

Thanks guys im in a better place now I moved back in with my parents. Realized I'm a pretty bad danger to myself honestly. As soon as I get to have complete privacy I just begin smashing benzos blacking out and swallowing retarded amounts of psychedelics then going crazy. I've been in a psych ward before so this is not my first rodeo whatsoever but I really want to make a change this time around. Trying to replace it with exercise or social meetings or some shit.

I don't think I will stay clean off everything forever just sticking with some weed and Kratom should be good enough as I've been doing most of my life. But psychedelics and mdma can be extremely dangerous and I don't think enough people realize this. Once youre in a full ego death state you are basically just a feral animal incapable of reason. Everyone is different of course but this is more or less my reaction. 95% of my trips are always amazing and insightful and I learn a lot but theres always that 5% where I go full memory blackout waking up bruised and broken. I think I've already learnt my lesson from them so not really any good reason to take them any further

Let this be a good lesson to other people experimenting with psychedelics and especially when combining them with other drugs like MDMA and xanax (which does not necessarily kill trips, but can worsen the psychosis and memory loss from my experience), there is zero reason to take anything more than the smallest amount possible in the beginning to understand what you're getting yourself into. The public perception of drugs like LSD and Magic Mushrooms being completely safe hippie drugs I believe is a very dangerous falsification. An overdosage can easily result in a full ego death and psychotic breakdown which may not be physiologically dangerous but you are a great danger to yourself I had nearly killed myself in one of these episodes as I lost over a liter of blood from cutting myself accidentally. When you're doing these things, make sure you always have someone else around to watch you and only ever take the suggested dosages.

Currently my situation is not completely unsalvageable as I still have my job and a place to live but I did scare many other people in the process and lost my own personal privacy. I believe these things will help me grow as a person and learn from my past actions as I am still quite young (20) and know many people who have gone through similar situations but grew to be stronger because of it. I'm not going to hate drugs or become an NA member instead I will just learn better to respect the powerful effects substances can have and the immeasurable consequences of misusing them can have and strive to instead use them as a tool to respect and not an escape from sobriety.

 

[Littana]

oh wow, love to hear this

exactly what i hoped for but really couldt even hope cos ,
Well we know how people can be when told the truth coldhard

 

[kokaino]

Benzodiazepines abort any kind of hallucinogenic/psychedelic trip. I take a benzo to stop a bad trip dead in its tracks.

 

[chris_p]

Benzodiazepines abort any kind of hallucinogenic/psychedelic trip. I take a benzo to stop a bad trip dead in its tracks.

Doesnt stop visuals or delusions whatsoever. If anything it can cause disinhibition and worsen psychosis. If it's a mild 'bad trip' it will definitely help, but the claim that benzos 'kill trips' is very dangerous information IMO. Antipsychotics like seroquel are the safest way to end a trip. You can take enough benzos to pass out which may work, but that's a bad idea in its own right