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600 MGS of oxy f. my. life.

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PatM

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SO hey, well just when i thought i was free i had yet another operation , and now i can down 600mgs of oxy a day like its skittles.

I am now OUT and going CT. hahahahaha.
only 6 hours in and already in wds. WOW what a difference 80mg a day makes to getting up to 600!
i read my old post on taking 80 a day and thinking THAT was high. well...that was kiddy play.

Any thoughts, advice. well i guess ive heard it all but really felt like I needed to say something to someone right now.
i have a small obligation that will miss its mommy for the next week...to month..to year...
and another big obligation that has no idea I am about to go totally CT off my meds.
Im scared. super fricken out of my mind freaking out scared.
I have to be nice, i have to be patient, i have to cook and clean and work and there is NO way i can not do these things.
 
Hello Pat.

Just wanted to give you some hope. I was once taking over 700mg of oxycodone a day (25 30mg blues a day). The withdrawals are hell, as you know.

I eventually found heroin and had a good 2 year run on that. Then I went on suboxone (with a prescription) for a year and a half. Without tapering at all, I took my last suboxone on April 16th and am now over 5 weeks completely clean, the longest I've been clean in over 5 years.

I don't post this to encourage you to try suboxone (nor heroin). In fact, knowing what I know now and dealing with the lingering suboxone withdrawals still, I'd advise not going on suboxone. Just push through the withdrawals cold turkey. Hang on tight and make a decision that no matter how bad it gets or how long it takes you're going to push through it. That mindset really helped me.

Just know that you're not alone and you CAN do this. I don't think I liked reading this when I was still using but I'll say it cause it is too true: it won't be easy but it will be worth it.

But also, be careful. Opiate addiction is a hard thing to get a handle on and i've been exactly where you are. If you don't stop using things will surely get a lot worse. Good luck.
 
Holy fuck and I thought heroin addiction was bad lol

600 MGs of Oxy is insane

Is there really no way you can taper?
 
Opioid withdrawal is mainly a psychological issue (craving, PAWS), as the physical withdrawal is only a minor issue. I would recommend tapering down to a lower dose and staying on an opioid you can afford (heroin for example). An opioid habit is no big deal. This is coming from a recovering barbiturate/benzo addict.
CT 400mg Phenobarbital, (if you survive) you would be having seizures and hallucinations and have your brains chemistry fucked for life.
CT 600mg Oxy, a bit of pain, vomiting and diahrrea. That's all.
To me, opioid w/d is like a fun game after what I've been through, and an opioid habit (if I can afford it) is just awesome.
 
When you say you're out of oxy, is this forever, or just for this month?

Not that it matters much atm, I currently take around 4-600mg per day. This is not what I'm prescribed, so I constantly & consistently run out early. So I totally get how bad you feel already.

In fact, I dreamt about being in wd last night. The oxy nightmare, when you can take pill after pill, & it barely reduces the physical pain let alone lol absurdity that whatever amount you take, you'll barely catch a buzz.

Are you in pain? You mention an operation, so has the doctor cut you off now? I can completely relate & commiserate, whether you were taking it for pain or for fun. Oxy, especially CT after such a high dose will suck. Even more so, I gather you're a parent with a young one to care for. I'm in the same boat, but with no real back up. Your partner doesn't know you're out of oxy. Do you plan on telling him/her, or do they not know you've been taking it?

This is do able!! I'm not sure if you've gone through wds previously, but as I said, I do it time & time again. I'm becoming more miserable with my own situation, but I'll start a new thread regarding that. Truth is, if it was that miserable then I'd stick to taking as prescribed. Yeah right ;)

So, if you were prescribed oxy, then I'll bet you have some other goodies rattling around your medicine cupboard. I've,(& many others), posted a LOT about how great Lyrica is for cushioning wd symptoms. If you're not lucky enough to have any, I think you'd be able to ask for some from your doctor. It's prescribed for nerve pain, which you'd quite likely conveniently acquire from any type of surgery.

Loperamide for diarrhoea is essential. Not in ridiculous doses like some have tried to get to cross the BBB, just in the usual dose range should work fine. Do you have any benzos? Some ppl in withdrawl can't sleep, I drink alcohol in the evening so most of the time I can sleep, but diazepam or similar will help with anxiety as well.

They're my top three that I rely on to get me through until prescription time again. Of course I'd rather not run out of oxy, but...

Also, I can't face food, so I stock up on meal replacement drinks. I don't know how old your little one is, are you home with them all day? If so, can someone help out with his care, or is daycare available?

Reading on BL is very helpful to myself in acute wd. It's somewhat reassuring to see that others have been through similar situations, & ended up in a better place.

Take care & keep us updated,

Rtp
 
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