chupa chup queen
Bluelighter
I used to write poems all the time. Mainly when I was really depressed. The first 2 poems I wrote back in year 10. The other 4 were written 2 years ago when I was in year 11. The last 3 short ones I wrote after a bad break up I was feeling like shit to say the least. I was on the bus on the way to school and the words just seemed to flow. I didn’t realize at the time that they reflected the stages I was goin through at the time. The first pain, the second anger and the third nothing.
I
You think you know so much,
yet you caused me so much pain
so now I ask you…
What do you know about love,
apart from breaking my heart?
What do you now about life,
apart from stuffing up mine?
What do you know about pain,
since you never suffered any?
What about friendship?
yours never remained true.
What do you know about honesty,
since you never tell the truth?
You think you know what happiness is,
but is that really true?
I’ve seen the sadness in your eyes,
and the love you’ve hidden deep inside.
I think you’re afraid to show how you feel,
so you hide behind a mask of lies
…the truth ever to be revealed.
II
You said you loved me
but that was a lie.
You pretended to like me,
You made me cry.
You played a stupid game,
and broke my heart.
You destroyed our love,
Our friendship fell apart.
Now you’ve come back
thinking I’ll let you in?
You’re not invited back into my life.
not after all the suffering and pain,
my scars still remain.
For my love was true
but it was ignored
by your senseless behaviour
which killed the love I hold.
III
Another sleepless night
the pillow soaked with salty tears once more
my mind still racing
my heart stil in pain
-too much pain
each day my hope diminishes
like a small island amidst a sea of despair
-it waits for the water to rise
waits to drown in the depths of my sorrow
IV
Stab my heart
with the jagged edge of your words
Laugh at my pain
Enjoy my sorrow
Find my dreams
-turn them into nightmares
destroy my hope
and leave me to die
V
I dwell in sorrow
in the darkness of my soul
wishing to forget what love did to me
mending a broken heart
re-living the memories
Wanting to end the torment…
but unwilling to let go
Haunted by the past
I look to the future
to end this misery.
VI
The darkness call to me
it relieves my pain
stops the longing for a better day
I look into your eyes
…see nothing
…feel nothing
…want nothing
to me you are nothing
but a passing memory
I
You think you know so much,
yet you caused me so much pain
so now I ask you…
What do you know about love,
apart from breaking my heart?
What do you now about life,
apart from stuffing up mine?
What do you know about pain,
since you never suffered any?
What about friendship?
yours never remained true.
What do you know about honesty,
since you never tell the truth?
You think you know what happiness is,
but is that really true?
I’ve seen the sadness in your eyes,
and the love you’ve hidden deep inside.
I think you’re afraid to show how you feel,
so you hide behind a mask of lies
…the truth ever to be revealed.
II
You said you loved me
but that was a lie.
You pretended to like me,
You made me cry.
You played a stupid game,
and broke my heart.
You destroyed our love,
Our friendship fell apart.
Now you’ve come back
thinking I’ll let you in?
You’re not invited back into my life.
not after all the suffering and pain,
my scars still remain.
For my love was true
but it was ignored
by your senseless behaviour
which killed the love I hold.
III
Another sleepless night
the pillow soaked with salty tears once more
my mind still racing
my heart stil in pain
-too much pain
each day my hope diminishes
like a small island amidst a sea of despair
-it waits for the water to rise
waits to drown in the depths of my sorrow
IV
Stab my heart
with the jagged edge of your words
Laugh at my pain
Enjoy my sorrow
Find my dreams
-turn them into nightmares
destroy my hope
and leave me to die
V
I dwell in sorrow
in the darkness of my soul
wishing to forget what love did to me
mending a broken heart
re-living the memories
Wanting to end the torment…
but unwilling to let go
Haunted by the past
I look to the future
to end this misery.
VI
The darkness call to me
it relieves my pain
stops the longing for a better day
I look into your eyes
…see nothing
…feel nothing
…want nothing
to me you are nothing
but a passing memory
